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I feel disgusting tonight, i had a semi bigger dinner meal than usual. Its the only meal i eat all day. I have tried adding more protein into my intake, beans,kidney,lima and the such. Not even a fifty calories worth in my dinner and i feel bad. I hate this feeling, that need to exercise, that anxiety that the food is going to make me gain so much weight overnight.Ugh. b r e a t h e


I am behind on my study, work has been hectic. I have the job of fixing up almost 3 years of paperwork that was left undone, incomplete. So im filling in a million holes in the system. No time for study. And when i finish work, i dont feel like studying, i want to relax, read,watch tv etc.
Im now doing an online assessment...and blogging.Im such a fabulous multi tasker..ha.


I weigh myself tomorrow. I weighed on Monday.Im kind of nervous, okay terrified,so i wont talk anymore about this whole Anorexia thing because its annoying, it consumes me, but what else to talk about...my failing relationship? Anorexia is destroying my life.





Edit
I weighed myself this morning, a little more weight gone. I have upped my intake however. Like last night for dinner, instead of just veges i had veges with these low fat noodles, that have alot of protein, beans, some chicken and sauce. Right i need to get to work now, its so cold, and im rugged up as you can see