unskeptic

Money is tight for me right now, too. No roommates though. No way. I hope this all works for you. They keep promising that fear of financial insecurity will leave me. And emotional insecurity. I sure hope so. How are you doing? You hanging in there okay?

Hey, thanks for responding. I'm sticking close to the program, eating chocolate for the cravings, and calling everyone in the program I can get a hold of. I haven't been sober this long in three years. I'm really not financially insecure I just have been trying to spread the love, and pay all my bills at once. The result is rice for dinner for the next three weeks. The rice is actually not that bad I made a rice vidaloo with some curry paste. I think that eggs from costoco are in my future. I don't have to work so I can't complain. although I am used to new york strip almost every night but then again I don't have kids or even a pet (yet, I may get some rats next month). I really don't feel emotionally insecure, YET. I'm waiting. Cute kid by the way. I got dumped a well over a year and a half ago which fueled my partying and self pity for quite sometime. I was such a wreck. We were living in the same house for ahile after we broke up while she got ready to move to NYC (leaving me for her Boss, the owner of the phone sex company she worked for) and she started to act like I was going to hurt her physically. I was on a plane the next morning to Hawaii where I now live. Hawaii is great for the broken hearted, and I love the program here so net win. The only downside was when I went back to get my stuff she'd sold it all.
My roommates are very supportive and glad to see me not drinking and even let my friend form the program come to stay this month aginst the desire to let the house air out. Its been a zoo here with the roommate with the girlfriend being here all the time. As you might imagine the partying here is out of control with some of the best ganga in the world. Luckily I'm was never in to the really shitty drugs like ice, what the locals call meth, and I never got jammed up legally. I just woke up after passing out on this woman I'd somehow picked up with that pitiful incomprehensible demoralization you hear about in the big book. I'm hanging in there but its harded this time. Thanks for caring