Today was rough as fuck. I have decided to stop using caffine, and I'm going to try and cut back on the sugar (hard when you work in a bakery). I just had one of those days...
I'm about to share a lot about myself so if you don't want to know more about me... go away.
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I used to be an amphetamine addict. Not by choice, but because I was misperscribed medication for four years. From the age of about 13 to the age of 17 or so I was taking amphetamines for no real reason. I wish it were not so, but addiction is for life. Today was the type of day where I would have had a hard time saying no, but I would have. I have been taking caffine recently, and I guess that has kinda brought on the urge. Caffine is a poor substitute. Anyway... I don't deal well with chaos, and today was chaos. No surface was not covered in clutter. I could not clean anything because there were things in the way of me cleaning. To clean something I would have to complete a job, and that would require me to clean a surface to do it on. All day long was like that, and the customers would not stop coming. This was one of those days where my pattern was the only thing that made me stay sane. So there I am feeling like crap... feeling the craving when I get hit by not one, but two vampires. You know those people who talk to you and suddenly you just feel tired and angry? Emotionally sucked dry? Yeah... two of them in a row, and then the first one came back 30 min later. She is going to come back tomorrow afternoon. I am going to have to hide when she comes in. *sigh* Why do they seek me out? I have seen them wait around until my co-workers are busy and THEN need assistance from me. Anyway... today was a seriously hard day.
If you read that... cool. You know a bit more about me. If not I understand. Sorry about that guys. Had to get that out there. I feel like you guys should know that about me. I dunno... meh.
Oh, and just to show up Lainey I need to talk about ninja robots. Those guys rock soooo hard. You will never see 'em coming... trust me.
I'm about to share a lot about myself so if you don't want to know more about me... go away.
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I used to be an amphetamine addict. Not by choice, but because I was misperscribed medication for four years. From the age of about 13 to the age of 17 or so I was taking amphetamines for no real reason. I wish it were not so, but addiction is for life. Today was the type of day where I would have had a hard time saying no, but I would have. I have been taking caffine recently, and I guess that has kinda brought on the urge. Caffine is a poor substitute. Anyway... I don't deal well with chaos, and today was chaos. No surface was not covered in clutter. I could not clean anything because there were things in the way of me cleaning. To clean something I would have to complete a job, and that would require me to clean a surface to do it on. All day long was like that, and the customers would not stop coming. This was one of those days where my pattern was the only thing that made me stay sane. So there I am feeling like crap... feeling the craving when I get hit by not one, but two vampires. You know those people who talk to you and suddenly you just feel tired and angry? Emotionally sucked dry? Yeah... two of them in a row, and then the first one came back 30 min later. She is going to come back tomorrow afternoon. I am going to have to hide when she comes in. *sigh* Why do they seek me out? I have seen them wait around until my co-workers are busy and THEN need assistance from me. Anyway... today was a seriously hard day.
If you read that... cool. You know a bit more about me. If not I understand. Sorry about that guys. Had to get that out there. I feel like you guys should know that about me. I dunno... meh.
Oh, and just to show up Lainey I need to talk about ninja robots. Those guys rock soooo hard. You will never see 'em coming... trust me.
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I consider myself fortunate to not have any addictions (substance-wise at least) so far. I hope I never do. I'm sorry that yours didn't even develop out of a choice, but a mistake someone else made. At least you are aware of it and deal with it in a positive way.