underrated

so...

someday s are good, some are bad.

when i thought things were ok, i get my hopes up.. then in a phone call they become shattered.
..i feel bad, anyone would.

you try to channel the energy to new vision and new work. it works. you become happy.

a friend returned from far away the other day, she told me something i'd rather not know.

i was shocked. it was news bout friends of mine. it makes me look kinda bad.
makes me look pathetic
or stupid and foolish.

im sure im some or all of those things at times. but this is retarded.

i have cut my hair.

im changing. i dissolve into anger. and i rise again.

i feel strong today. it is someone i loves first birthday. she isnt well
but we are going to the aquarium!

x my anger fades for a second and i feel warmth and love.

..it will return. it always does. but today is new.
the sun is shining and i feel good, i feel great!

x no more ties. no more lies. no more pitiful sighs x

strength in solidarity.

here's to the future!

x life rocks x

happy first birthday elliotte x