tulipbooty

of fucking course, i am unable to upload photos of the derby
if possible, however, i am going to try and get one of the mini-videos on here for yall to oggle
well see how well that works

i have ventured back out in to the world of the interaloweb and found some other place to venture opinions
hoping for some interesting brain fodder, some new voices to add to the clamor
and instead, i have berated and insulted repeatedly
--of course, like any other victimization, you could say i asked for it, and you would, of course, be a cocksucker for doing so--
i cant tell if its the kind of thing where people dont want a noisy new kid on the block
if they like the insular "cool kids" vision of the blue screen
for the first time, i am elite
i am afraid of you, alien
it reminds me of being in spain, where i stormed off, unable to brush away the feeling of nauseated anger
bitchthreefuckingyearsagoiwouldvecutyousobad
noonewantstofuckabitchwithacutface, cunt, sayitagain, cunt
and i heard the men say, after i finished my coffee
ten am, odd time for the spanish
and i heard the darker one ask and the younger say
extranjera
the stranger
this seems to be the year for this feeling
its touching a nerve, now
im not over it any more, and i couldnt have told you i wasnt before a bunch of geeks started calling me names on a blue screen
threeyearsagomotherfuckeri
i dont know what to do with angry now
its so much harder when youre not allowed to take the hit and give one back
i thought i was smart but i dont feel that way right now
i thought if i found ways to be anonymous it would be still
but its not
and i dont know what to do with that

any suggestions for problem solving for the exdrinking, exdrugging, exfighting fool?
all are welcome

take care everybody