random fantasy tangent stemming from the idea of "unnamed sadness"
We slept and woke in the midwest for weeks. I took a basement apartment below the mountains and skyscrapers same thing makes no difference and stayed there ringing my hands around my wrists and fumbling for a lighter in the dark. On the surface I felt a habitual stabilization from the routine of coffee shops...
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We slept and woke in the midwest for weeks. I took a basement apartment below the mountains and skyscrapers same thing makes no difference and stayed there ringing my hands around my wrists and fumbling for a lighter in the dark. On the surface I felt a habitual stabilization from the routine of coffee shops...
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fatality:
Simpsons
"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
This question seems utterly ugly and wrong. Not only is this question asking a child to consider themselves in relation to career paths at a young age but is teaching said child to define themselves by that path, implying that your job essentially defines you as a person. What do you want to BE? Further,...
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This question seems utterly ugly and wrong. Not only is this question asking a child to consider themselves in relation to career paths at a young age but is teaching said child to define themselves by that path, implying that your job essentially defines you as a person. What do you want to BE? Further,...
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fatality:
Speaking of what I want to be right now, I have like 5 jobs to decide between for this summer. And how do I pick a med school? And why do decisions suck? And why am I dealing with 12,000 at once?
How are you? Are you gonna be living with Bernie this summer?
How are you? Are you gonna be living with Bernie this summer?
i spend every day waiting for the new bright eyes cd to get here. walking home i try to tell myself not to get too expectant, to prepare for disappointment and every day that preparation pays off. smoking too much. maybe they call it chain smoking because it chains you down. i wish there was a word for the emotion when you feel like you...
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fatality:
Did you get the damn CD yet? What's all the stallin about, boy?
Wrote this the other day in a coffee shop. sort of how i've been thinking about things recently. mostly in a backwards dreamy sort of way...
Coffee makes my heart beat too fast.
I used to have brown hair, long brown hair
But then I thought too much and my hairs fell out
And ideas grew instead and now I have hundreds
Of colors
Of...
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Coffee makes my heart beat too fast.
I used to have brown hair, long brown hair
But then I thought too much and my hairs fell out
And ideas grew instead and now I have hundreds
Of colors
Of...
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lily:
you write beautifully. I miss you too. when will we meet again?
(planning future) can we never look at each other with anyone else's values in our eyes?
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fatality:
I got my single today. I had been waiting to listen to any of the songs until I got it.
Commence.
Commence.
fatality:
Are you going to any Clipse shows.....
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Original sin? Original sin?? Lies. How did we fall into this trap, this extra-natural delusion? Who believes this? Christians you say? Bah! Innocence I say. No, no. That is as much of a delusion as guilt. At the very least not guilty. How could a culture built on such fraudulent religious principles have established in the minds of the people such a natural assumption: innocent...
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fatality:
P.S. I see that you kinda have noticed, but in case you didn't know the trend, all of Sean's Sets are wonderfully natural and top-notch photography
fatality:
I mean, if it makes up for anything, I'm seeing Trick Daddy and Rick Ross this weekend...
Standing under the shady shadow of a square block apartment building, I can feel the speeding cars rushing air down the street, breathing the life back into me. It feels good to be home. Ahh, the comforts of concrete. Concrete and steam vents. Steam vents and metro stations. The greasy smell of Peruvian chicken. Hip-hop. The use of the word hip-hop. Spoken late, late at...
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So...I've been thinkin,
If everyone died at the same time as their friends, or everyone somehow knew that they were going to die at the same time, would death seem so scary? Like, now, as we conceptualize it, when you die it is a solitary thing. You are the only one dying. Say science advanced a shitload and people started living until they were 200...
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If everyone died at the same time as their friends, or everyone somehow knew that they were going to die at the same time, would death seem so scary? Like, now, as we conceptualize it, when you die it is a solitary thing. You are the only one dying. Say science advanced a shitload and people started living until they were 200...
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capital:
On the one hand, death seems worrisome as a solitary plunge. On the other hand, i think it's downplayed because it's solitary. Some old relative's funeral, or anyone's, it's "phew, glad i'm not him," and a continuing with things as they were. As they are, death is unpredictable - no build-up! Happens to everyone with a roll of the dice. Maybe some indication, a worsening cough, an ominous cat-scan, as the case may be, but there's no real suspense or build-up. It's a poorly directed movie.
But if you knew when you were going to die, along with everyone else? I can't imagine the rituals and hysteria that would develop around death. Thousands of people channeling their spirits in unison in cultish togetherness. Christian death camps, Muslim death camps, camps of friends. And the anarchy in anticipation - everyone doing what they would have all their lives if laws, physical and societal, didn't exist. Also, you could say proper goodbyes, have proper reflection and closure.
It would be a mini-apocalypse occurring for every generation.
(...I know you meant more small-scale, like our New York experience, so I'm sure this was somewhat of a tangent. anyway.)
But if you knew when you were going to die, along with everyone else? I can't imagine the rituals and hysteria that would develop around death. Thousands of people channeling their spirits in unison in cultish togetherness. Christian death camps, Muslim death camps, camps of friends. And the anarchy in anticipation - everyone doing what they would have all their lives if laws, physical and societal, didn't exist. Also, you could say proper goodbyes, have proper reflection and closure.
It would be a mini-apocalypse occurring for every generation.
(...I know you meant more small-scale, like our New York experience, so I'm sure this was somewhat of a tangent. anyway.)
Two recurring daydreams and fantasies:
1) A plain white room: I have this vision of a plain white room with a really soft white carpet and a plain white couch. No other furniture. Soft, sinking, worn in but not old. Nothing on the floor, well lit, but dark enough to visibly feel the sun coming in from the windows. Definitely TV, videogames, anything simple and...
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1) A plain white room: I have this vision of a plain white room with a really soft white carpet and a plain white couch. No other furniture. Soft, sinking, worn in but not old. Nothing on the floor, well lit, but dark enough to visibly feel the sun coming in from the windows. Definitely TV, videogames, anything simple and...
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fatality:
And Clipse: you could be a rapper, too!
There are so many muses hovering around me recently. When I think about them long enough I wind up curled into fetal position in a shaking ecstasy fit.
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madeleine:
I could use some muses.
How are you today?
How are you today?
lily:
Are you in florida as well? Where are you? I'm headed south and I want to talk with you again....
So I've had several conversations recently about how I need to post. There has been a delay because I wasn't sure exactly where to start. There's so much catching up we need to do. I'm not sure what I want to be my first post. It's like if you had to choose your own birthday. Then I just figured I would write about this, about...
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toyarmy:
i like imagineing the rolling ball. or getting the ball running. with the cinderella stuff and stuff.
id like to go to that.
id like to go to that.