Sunday Sep 14, 2008

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I need to get over this.
Just stop.
If only it was that simple.
If only...
jamila:
frown
kilcher:
Yeah, if only.... But you can do it. kiss

Thursday Sep 11, 2008

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So I got the tests done.
And everything is normal.
It was the worst,
most painful, horrible
thing I could imagine having to go through...
They should really find a new sedative,
or atleast give you more of it.
Because DAMN!
Anyways.. we're down to two things it could be
a) a rare wheat allergy
b) my brain is communicating too quickly/ too much with...
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yulia:
Stay strong sweetie. I'm here if you need to rant or talk.
okame:
hey.. makes me sad to think you're going through so much.. you're definately not crazy but it's understandable how you would feel that way .. without knowing what's wrong with your body and what's going on with your health i'm sure anyone in that position would feel insane! .. i was sick for a really long time and eventually ended up having panic attacks quite frequently and no-one could explain to me what was going on.. turns out i just had to stop smoking marijuana but also i completely cut out wheat - gluten & all dairy and i've felt pretty damn good since..
if you're up for sharing, tell me your symptoms.. not to blow my own horn but i have a fair bit of knowledge on alternitive medicine.. maybe there is a solution without having to go to the doctors all the time..
sending you some love anyway babe.. hope things look up for you soon! smile

Wednesday Sep 10, 2008

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I had a wonderful day today.
A confusing wonderful day.
I'm not gonna ask any questions,
I'm not gonna try to work out this puzzle,
I'm just gonna smile and be happy. smile
But everything is so complicated.
As one slips more and more into my life...
the one who left so eagerly is pushing his way back in.
He just told me he "loves me...
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kilcher:
Good to hear you had a wonderful day!! Stay on the path you're on and they will continue. Don't let the past deter you as you know that road only leads to pain. Stay with the bliss. wink

How have you been feeling?
casino:
cute name change *^_^* when will you be submitting a new set? we need to see more of your cutieface

Thursday Sep 04, 2008

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I went in and waited till 11 o'clock before going back to Triage shaking like a leaf due to the pain.
They rushed me in a stuck me on morphine drip.
So I spent the entire day feeling numb.
Then I did some horrible CT where they pumped my blood with dye, and it was the most fucked up feeling in the world. Plus CT...
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ona:
hey, i got your message... are you aliiiive?
mao:
get well soon, beautiful lady!!!!
and thanks for sweet words!!!

kiss

Wednesday Sep 03, 2008

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I passed out today.
From pain.
I thought maybe I had low blood sugar.
But no. It was fine once I got to the ER.. they checked.
How does someone walk around in so much pain and not realize it?
Not care...
Anyways.. my kidneys appear to be bleeding and present white blood cells mean I'm fighting some sort of internal infection.
I got some...
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lee:
I hope they find out what's going on with you. Good luck kiss
quarie_glitter:
oh thats awful... i really hope you get better, i feel for you.... no one should have to suffer as you are.

Wednesday Sep 03, 2008

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I don't know how to say this.
But I woke up today feeling plain, unoriginal, washed out.
There's nothing I do that someone can't do much better.
I'm just some weird little girl,
with no concrete grip on this fucking world.
Living in the cold, dark memories of my past.
I'm nothing special.
Just another teenager, trying so hard to find my place.
Struggling with...
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1stmateacidmike:
well im sorry to hear that the same feelings just coming back but i dont think you should hate yourself i think you have alot going for you and one day everything will all work out and ur gonna know who u r and who u wanna be
quarie_glitter:
far out. your blogs are wonderful.. you write so well, so honestly, and no one does that these days. i feel we are very alike; anorexia, depression, addiction.. i know these states, they're rough.. hang in there pretty girl, obviously are pretty incredibly but just cant see it.

Monday Sep 01, 2008

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Is it wrong for me to miss him?
That he's constantly on my mind.
That the little things he does make me smile,
for days afterwards.
Is it wrong for me to long for him?
To anticipate each encounter,
fantasizing in the mean time.
Wishing time would go by faster.
Is it wrong that I trust him?
That I'm not afraid,
completely open,
too very...
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missshank:
aww

i hope you figure stuff out, just by reading this i cannot ascertain the situation tongue
jaybugg:
? O_O

lefted me

nighty night!!

Monday Sep 01, 2008

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I burnt my fucking haaand.
AHHH I have vitamin E oil all over it and like five hello kitty bandaids. Haha.
Way to start the day.
I'm too afraid to go shower.
Cause the hot water may make me have a heart attack. GAAAHHH.
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furiaa:
hope your hand get better soon frown i am so afraid to get burned
1stmateacidmike:
awwww poor baby want me to kiss it better?

Sunday Aug 31, 2008

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My abdomen hurts so much right now.
Its like a stabbing pain in my right hip.
It is fucking horrible.
I toughed out the weekend.. I guess it is easier to ignore while I'm doing something.
But fuck man.
This hurts.
They're scheduling me for a colonoscopy.
I'm hoping there is nothing serious.
By this pain... I'm so worried there is.
I'm shaking, I can't...
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ellyshia:
frown frown frown I hope you feel better REALLY soon. Maybe you have gal stones or kidney stones...I had gal stones and it sounds like what you're talking about. If it is that then they can fix it and you'll feel 1000000x better really soon so that's always a plus.


I send my love and hugs my dear!!! kiss




renna:
Oh no!

Feel better bebe!

Friday Aug 29, 2008

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Wows I have 500 comments on my set now biggrin
You guys are wonderful.
I loves you tons.
Thanks Heroine for being #500!!!
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jaybugg:
weee
heroine:
Anytime! Now maybe I can be # 600 soon! Hopefully it will be live by that time! biggrin kiss

Thursday Aug 28, 2008

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My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me?
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quidpronihilo:
Bien,je ne comprennent pas ce que j'ai dit l'un ou l'autre. J'aime rellement des fruits, mais je ne suis pas vraiment dans le broccoli. Jouez-vous des billards ou preffer fauchez-vous la pelouse la place ? shocked
heroine:
You changed your name huh? I wish you would go pink alreadyyyyyY!!!!!!!!!!! mad

Thursday Aug 28, 2008

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I'm BORED.
FUUUUUUUUUCK.



I can't wait for tomorrow.
I'm rocking the night out at Foofs!!
So all you montreal folks should come. OKAY?
I basically have plans all weekend so its pretty awesome.
Tomorrow Im gonna try to buy some books, cause the line is shorter now.
And sooo.
Yeah.
I'm BOREEED
FUUUUUUUUUCKING HEEEELL.
I need a hobby...
kilcher:
Haha. Have a great weekend!! smile
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