i need pain to make me feel alive. i woke up this morning feeling completely lost and not myself. its been one hell of a week or so.
i failed my exam in photography they are giving me thirty days to redo it. i just redid the test and the highest i cold get was a 70, so i got a 70 on that one...
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i failed my exam in photography they are giving me thirty days to redo it. i just redid the test and the highest i cold get was a 70, so i got a 70 on that one...
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***edea just made my day!! such a sweetheart! 
moms a dork, she just told me dad and her were talking and are thinking of charging me room and board to live here.. wtf i have lived here for 19 yrs and now theywanna be pricks to me b/c i have a part time job. fuck them theyare ruining my plans to move to ny.. i...
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moms a dork, she just told me dad and her were talking and are thinking of charging me room and board to live here.. wtf i have lived here for 19 yrs and now theywanna be pricks to me b/c i have a part time job. fuck them theyare ruining my plans to move to ny.. i...
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disgorge:
I think we need a trip to the strip club to calm you down!
freyja__:
wearing ones heart on ones sleeve requires thick skin.
xo
xo
it 2am thursday morning and i have never felt better i am happy and content with myself.. i actually got down to sit alone and do some major thinking and sorted everything out in my head. now i am just a lil tired and want to go study but i will probally fall asleep as soon as i get into bed.
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disgorge:
Glad you're happy Tif. Much love! 
scattershot:
I have just discovered the secret to two page responses for journal entries ... write a really long journal
ha-za!!
oh and I totally love that song ... its been in my head for days. that paul mcCoy has an infectious voice and so does the evenescence girl.
[Edited on Apr 10, 2003]
ha-za!!
oh and I totally love that song ... its been in my head for days. that paul mcCoy has an infectious voice and so does the evenescence girl.
[Edited on Apr 10, 2003]
snow snow snow GO THE FUCK AWAY 
in other news i am much better. ended up not going to work and just relaxing at home and got a lot done as far as health wise..... i am doing better my cramps aren't as bad and my mind is clear of negative thoughts i am back to my crazy loving self.. yayyyyyyyy *does happy dance* ......
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in other news i am much better. ended up not going to work and just relaxing at home and got a lot done as far as health wise..... i am doing better my cramps aren't as bad and my mind is clear of negative thoughts i am back to my crazy loving self.. yayyyyyyyy *does happy dance* ......
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queeg:
Glad to hear that you're feeling better...although I didn't hear that you were feeling bad in the first place, but that's of no consequence...so yes, this is a random journal posting...I'm bored!
Cell phones do suck btw...I stopped using mine a year ago, I'm pretty sure they're carcinogenic...
Cell phones do suck btw...I stopped using mine a year ago, I'm pretty sure they're carcinogenic...
disgorge:
Isn't it supposed to be spring? 
i didn't get to bed this morning til about 4:30am. woke up to mom telling me to call work b/c they want me to come in earlier. screw that. i am already working 7 hours i am all set with dealing with ppl even longer today. i am bitchy as all hell and have major cramps grrr. that explains my mood recently and my high...
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freyja__:
i didn't get to sleep until about the same time.
i was WIRED for no good reason.
weirdness.
must be the snow.
*grumble*
xoxo
i was WIRED for no good reason.
weirdness.
must be the snow.
*grumble*
xoxo
today i got woken up at 10am by jackie calling my cell, she proceed to try talking to me knowing i was half awake. then i realized i didn't get mom a card so i had to run to the store and get her a b-day card and some lottery tickets. i also made her a bracelet last night so yeah. jackie came over with...
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so tonight i get home from work and i was joking around with mom about her knee and i accidently hit her knee and yeah she was in pain IT WAS AN ACCIDENT 
its like sheer ice outside grr i had to fight with my cr door when igot out of work to open it..
i should call my sister sometime next week and tell...
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i just tried sleeping and it didn't work. i can feel my body relaxing but my head is going in overdrive...
so i hung out with my brother tonight for god knows how long that was an adventure in a half but it was fun. we went to so many places. we went to michaels craft store, then to target, then to some store in...
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so i hung out with my brother tonight for god knows how long that was an adventure in a half but it was fun. we went to so many places. we went to michaels craft store, then to target, then to some store in...
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disgorge:
Glad you made it home alright.
You're always great fun to hang with Tif.
You're always great fun to hang with Tif.
freyja__:
sweetness.
thanks. :>
i feel for you having to take care of your mother.
i'm wishing you tons of strength and patience!
xo
thanks. :>
i feel for you having to take care of your mother.
i'm wishing you tons of strength and patience!
xo
how come i can never seem to give up i just keep fighting. its never gonna go away. it haunts me when i least expect it and then it brings up so much more pain. i don't know what to do. i have the urge to just pick up and leave. what is stopping me? besides the fact i have no place to go. i...
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broken_reality:
God I'm so totally with ya on that....I need to find my soulmate. She's awesome. We are two halves of one whole. But I don't know where she is. Keep fighting, don't give in. Well unless you want to go on a killing spree with me.
freyja__:
there is so much pain involved in growing
shedding skins and stretching feelings
struggling to find the right fit
you're still so young
always take the time out to really listen to yourself
be good to yourself
you. are. love.
xoxo
shedding skins and stretching feelings
struggling to find the right fit
you're still so young
always take the time out to really listen to yourself
be good to yourself
you. are. love.
xoxo
GRRR i just tried again and it cut off basically the whole thing ugh who do i talk to about this.. is it just me? SuperScott- haha you read what i posted before i got pissed at this journal.. here it is again so ppl don't think u r looney.. so i was on the T last night goin from braintree into harvard sq, &...
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i just tried again and it cut off basically the whole thing ugh who do i talk to about this.. is it just me? SuperScott- haha you read what i posted before i got pissed at this journal.. here it is again so ppl don't think u r looney.. so i was on the T last night goin from braintree into harvard sq, &... Read More
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roamingaround:
You took the high road. I would have made a comment about their brain piercings.
johnnysuicide:
yeah people suck....i get ridculed my self on style as well but fucken there just jelaus becoues they dont have the ballls enuf to do it them selfs
... i tried posting a new entry and it was screwing up somehow i dunno i tried twice this is my third time.. blah who know si am half awake so i don't want to do any thinking
PEACE LOVE and HAPPINESS
love you all...
love
trinity
i give up i am just gonna go clean and watch movies b/c its fucking raining
PEACE LOVE and HAPPINESS
love you all...
love
trinity
i give up i am just gonna go clean and watch movies b/c its fucking raining
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freyja__:
love to you, girlie!
xoxoxox
xoxoxox
pip:
It's snowing now. 
peace and love
peace and love
Forgive Me Father For I Have Sinned.... Forgive Me Mother For I Have Sinned...
I never thought I would see this day. I always remember shit would be okay. I was wrong. Why is it theirs so much hate for the ones who are not all alike? Never realizing i have no support hurt. I spent nights crying myself to sleep b/c of you. I...
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I never thought I would see this day. I always remember shit would be okay. I was wrong. Why is it theirs so much hate for the ones who are not all alike? Never realizing i have no support hurt. I spent nights crying myself to sleep b/c of you. I...
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freyja__:
love and light.
xo
xo
kinnie:
Hey hon... I'm terribly sorry that all that is going on with your mum. Just know that there are so many people out here that DO accept and love you! But I know it can be hard when that one person you need just can't... If you ever need to talk, you can catch me on AIM. I'm here for you!
2nd check out my journal update. I love when problems fix themselves.
3rd and I hate saying this because I hated hearing when I was your age, but it's true. Be patient with the family thing, it will settle down and become better over time.
4th i have next saturday off should I go to the fetish ball at Manray or the SGNYC costume party?
5th "What the world needs now is love, sweet love. That's the only thing that there's just too little of"
sorry about that quote, just had to fulfill the law of fives.