treachery

man i was talking to some people tonite about a person who just took thier life.next thing i know i was balling i dont know whats wrong with me i dont normally cry but ever since my brother died it really hard to keep my composure when talking about death.its wierd too because i dont know that im afraid to die.for instance i woke up today to the sounds of the blue angels for sea fair.i thought we were under attack so i turned on the news because i was sure of it.i felt somewhat at ease of the fact of possibly being attacked it was wierd.sorry for babbling.
on another note i dont know if im really fitting into this site very well.whats it all about?naked girls and making friends in your area.i liked it when i was flirting with a certain someone on here all the time but due to us living so far away and other shit that stopped.who knows maybe i will drift into another cyber friendship site or maybe i will make real friends in seattle.i have a few so far but spend most of my time alone.