Tuesday Feb 24, 2004

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i can't be a whore anymore.
i develop the scenario, how i'd ask her to go home with me, how i'd ask her to coffee, etc.
but i leave, shyer than ever, not wanting any of it. to the point where its not even worth talking about it to the homeys, cause they know i won't do it. and i know i won't do it.
i can't think of one person i'm actually interested in.
but i've got all this new exciting gear to make music with, and i went on a tour of my new school, and i'm super fucking excited about the whole deal.
today i picked up 50 bucks worth of programming books at the store, but put them down right before the checkout line. why? i don't know, guess its cause i'd already spent 500 bucks on great shit.
but i'm gonna go back and buy those books.
its odd to feel so violently opposed to dating but so amazingly ecstatic about programming.
and knowing everything about dating almost, and knowing nothing about programming almost.

humbling.

been all balled up at the head office for so long, its nice to be home.

what are you excited about?
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dumpling:
August, my dog, the endless possiblities of soy, March break, a sweater I've been knitting for the past 2 years.

...don't be sore with me I like reading your journal recycled or not.
grey:
i don't think it's odd, i think it's good. don't be a whore just do what you feel like doing even if it's nothing. that's what i'm doing.

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