timeoftheeclipse

as much as i can
i hate living with my parents again
i feel like im a teenager
and it seems that im always mad again now
getting pissed off really easily and shit
i really really really miss my privacy
and my space
and quiet
and not having two dogs and three cats running around everywhere
and i miss the air conditioning not being down to 65 and still on even tho its like 45 degrees outside
im freeeeeezing!!!!
i miss being able to take showers without worrying about someone else using all the hot water, or if one of the other four people here is washing clothes or dishes or soemthing.
im slowly becoming the moody person i was when i used to live at home, its just the environment im stuck in.
so i am out of the hosue as much as i can and lock myself in my teeny tiny bedrrom that bearely has enough room for my queen bed when i am here.
oh
and im smoking again
a lot
its feels like the only way i can cope with the living situation
it sucks
grrrr
trust me, im grateful that they are letting me stay here, and of course i lvoe my family.
i just catn live with them.
my sister and i had talked about getting a place together with her boyfriend, but i dont even think taht can work.
my sister has the ability to piss me off more than any human on the face of the earth and vice versa
we are really close and knwo the buttons to push and we enjoy that sometimes, its a game with us i guess
but yeah, i couldnt live with her.

in other news, things are looking good
im feeling a ton better, but im still tired a lot, but the doc said that is normal for a while
im back to working almost fulltime and work is giogn well. its busier with the holidays approaching, so its good.
i hurt the shit outof my back yesterday, btu tahts what i get for lifting with my back....
ive always had a bad back, i jsut need to start using my legs

i know im always talking about how broke i am, and i really am, but i was bad and spent way more money than i could have the other day. as some of you may or may not know, im a fine wine seller by trade. at my former job, i took a lowly drug store and turned into one of the best wien shops in town. i was pretty proud of what i had done there, especially considering that most of the wine we sold were things that i had to hand sell, things the average shopper wouldnt know about. and some pretty pricey items at that. btu when i moved on to my current job, i left a black hole of wine knowledge at the store and i knew it woudl only be a matter of time before they wanted to get rid of the wines taht that had no idea how to sell. so this week, they finally clearanced out everythign i put in there for below cost! a friend calls and tells me, so after work i swooped in and bought about $400 worth of wine on my credit card. the cool thing was that the wines were worth almost $800 at regular price, so taht made me happy. and to make what would be a very short story even longer, im now ni more debt but with a ton of great wine and im a happy boy.

oh well, ima go for now, ill be back soonish
its midnite now and i finally think i can take a shower.. either that or do laundry.... guess i have a decision to make

later kids
love you all

-m

~update~
apparently my earthlink account has been closed for some unknown reason, but from now on ill be available at my gmail account timeoftheeclipse@gmail.com