i was never scared of moving on - it was always the never finding anyone i was that passionate about again that terrified me. i remember that because i scribbled it down the night after he threw me in that fucking hot-tub: towel & all. i used to think we were soul mates. i was never any more happy than how happy i was when...
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missmir:
next baby, you got another one comin?!?!? 
danu:
you write beautifully. i envy you.
i'm over it.
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i've been packing like mad when lennon lets me! yesterday i packed up a bunch of clothes that i won't need for the next couple weeks. almost every article of clothing reminded me of some signiificant time in my life! i have a shirt that i've only worn twice... BOTH times i've worn it i got dumped by two seperate ex-boyfriends!...
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i've been packing like mad when lennon lets me! yesterday i packed up a bunch of clothes that i won't need for the next couple weeks. almost every article of clothing reminded me of some signiificant time in my life! i have a shirt that i've only worn twice... BOTH times i've worn it i got dumped by two seperate ex-boyfriends!...
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hopey:
No Ty run ins...... 
You look pretty in those pics.
You look pretty in those pics.
nata:
OMG so cannot wait until monday!!!
When I was 9 months pregnant all ALONE in the middle of fucking nowhere no one would stay with me in case I went into labor - they all had some shitty excuse. Now I've got a 2 story house to pack up by MYSELF with a 3 month old who needs my constant attention and everyone has an even shittier excuse!
I learn more...
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dreu:
Sorry, sweets. I feel the same exact way these days.
lela:
since i can't be there to help out, i will just make sure that you have a great time next weekend!
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nata:
hey momma i haven't talked to you for awhile 
how goes it?
how goes it?
nata:
hmmm whats going on???
Robert Plant makes me unbelievably wet.
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piksy:
thank you! tell your sis i said happy birthday too. 
I was sad & depressed & alone, so I drove home smoking marijuana, telling myself its okay because Lennon needs a happy mom , but its just a fucking excuse to get high. I'm sick of doing this all alone most of the time - the baby, the dog, the house, the yard, me! I can't be everything ALL the time and still remain sane!...
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rpg:
(((((hugs)))))
Being a new mom is a lot to deal with. I can't speak from your perspective, only from that of a dad, so I'll leave the advice to wiser, more knowledgable friends. But if there is every anything I can do for you, just let me know, ok?
I hope you move down here. Regina is a good city, it's got it's bad parts like any other city, but overall, there's really no other place I'd rather be right now (although I love Saskatoon, for many reasons, that city would still be my 2nd choice).
Yup, glad to get otta Calgary, the driving, the parking, the cost of living....it's full of excitement and you can get just about anything you want at a price.....great place to visit, but Regina is a better place to live, for me anyways.
Hope to see you again sometime.
Being a new mom is a lot to deal with. I can't speak from your perspective, only from that of a dad, so I'll leave the advice to wiser, more knowledgable friends. But if there is every anything I can do for you, just let me know, ok?
I hope you move down here. Regina is a good city, it's got it's bad parts like any other city, but overall, there's really no other place I'd rather be right now (although I love Saskatoon, for many reasons, that city would still be my 2nd choice).
Yup, glad to get otta Calgary, the driving, the parking, the cost of living....it's full of excitement and you can get just about anything you want at a price.....great place to visit, but Regina is a better place to live, for me anyways.
Hope to see you again sometime.
bixbygrendel:
Well............. look at me having something amazingly awesome to say.
Nobody but you should ever have the right to EXPECT you to be everything, and nobody but you should ever make you feel like nothing. AND when you wrap it all up in a ball and put a pretty bow on it it's nothing but pure truth when I say that lady..... you're a mom. Therefore you can NEVER be nothing and to at least one lil bugger.... you ARE everything. SO THERE!
But yeah. Shit sucks when you're the one shoveling most of it.
Nobody but you should ever have the right to EXPECT you to be everything, and nobody but you should ever make you feel like nothing. AND when you wrap it all up in a ball and put a pretty bow on it it's nothing but pure truth when I say that lady..... you're a mom. Therefore you can NEVER be nothing and to at least one lil bugger.... you ARE everything. SO THERE!
But yeah. Shit sucks when you're the one shoveling most of it.
our plans for a mother's day picnic got cancelled due to weather & unforseen events.
i didn't take pictures of my peace lily either, but trust me when i say its beautiful!
sunkist_sudafed wrote the nicest thing for me that anyone has ever wrote for me in his blog! now i feel all giddy & loved & i can't wipe this shit eating grin off...
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i didn't take pictures of my peace lily either, but trust me when i say its beautiful!
sunkist_sudafed wrote the nicest thing for me that anyone has ever wrote for me in his blog! now i feel all giddy & loved & i can't wipe this shit eating grin off...
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mrsmeaney:
PLEEEEEEASE!!
That would be so fun!
That would be so fun!
whitewidow:
Thank you for your condolences - it means alot
it's friday night,
i'm bored,
lennon & i are grooving to some grateful dead while daddy is downstairs drinking martini's with the neighbour!
my baby got me a peace lilly for mother's day & i fucking adore it... mostly because it's called PEACE lilly! (i will post pics on mother's day!) we're also planning on a picnic for mother's day if the weather cooperates! i'm...
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i'm bored,
lennon & i are grooving to some grateful dead while daddy is downstairs drinking martini's with the neighbour!
my baby got me a peace lilly for mother's day & i fucking adore it... mostly because it's called PEACE lilly! (i will post pics on mother's day!) we're also planning on a picnic for mother's day if the weather cooperates! i'm...
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bixbygrendel:
Things damned well better ge better. I'm sick of the situation entirely. Driven a steak into my already old and bitter heart. Grr.
lela:
it was just so unexpected, you know? we had such a wikkid time up in stoon, i was all soft and mushy and like "aww we bonded.." and then WHAM he just shoots me down in the meanest way possible. and he did it in a very careless, flippant manner too, like single moms probably have NO FEELINGS or anything, and they are probably totally used to being insulted and degraded because they are mothers, and hey, whats the big deal, they're only good for casual sex anyways! how dare i expect to be treated with anymore respect than he'd give a whore off the street!
heh
was i right about how sexy he is? at least i can say i did him. gotta see the bright side!
at least i got to see you and your family again. i was so out of it before the tattoo b/c of major anxiety, not really much of a conversationalist during because it was kinda ouchie, and so tired/burnt out after that it was all i could do to stay sitting up at that table. i'm glad you like the little onesie! he's such a cute baby, i can't wait to see it on him.
thanks again for hookin me up this weekend. happy mother's day!
heh
was i right about how sexy he is? at least i can say i did him. gotta see the bright side!
at least i got to see you and your family again. i was so out of it before the tattoo b/c of major anxiety, not really much of a conversationalist during because it was kinda ouchie, and so tired/burnt out after that it was all i could do to stay sitting up at that table. i'm glad you like the little onesie! he's such a cute baby, i can't wait to see it on him.
thanks again for hookin me up this weekend.
happy mother's day!i can't sleep. then again, i haven't really tried.
everything has changed. even me.
everything has changed. even me.
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mrsmeaney:
Tell me that's not your boob in that new picture you put up.
Holy crap, they are ginormous.
Mine have gone down quite a bit over the last few months. Man do I miss those D cups.
Holy crap, they are ginormous.
Mine have gone down quite a bit over the last few months. Man do I miss those D cups.
lela:
well you just need to get your sweet lil ass down here then!! your man will always be your fav but to have a city full of awesome friends will surely help with things. i'll come over and make you supper so you can sleep! or you know, something like that.
ahh i am supposed to be getting ready to go so i'm off to do that! see you SOON!!!
ahh i am supposed to be getting ready to go so i'm off to do that! see you SOON!!!
it's 3:00 & i have completly forgot to feed myself today - sometimes i'm really bad at things like looking after myself.
i need out.... or a drink or a smoke or a joint or...
just really LOUD music screaming into my ears!
i need out.... or a drink or a smoke or a joint or...
just really LOUD music screaming into my ears!
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sunkist_sudafed:
Well, In all fairness you have a pretty cute kid too 
Plane gets here about 6 or 6:30 sometime. Be in saskatoon about 9 or 9:30.
I can't wait!!!!!
Plane gets here about 6 or 6:30 sometime. Be in saskatoon about 9 or 9:30.
I can't wait!!!!!
nata:
yeah im gonna have to agree that your kid is pretty cute...yes girls are stupid and annoying... 