I was sad & depressed & alone, so I drove home smoking marijuana, telling myself its okay because Lennon needs a happy mom , but its just a fucking excuse to get high. I'm sick of doing this all alone most of the time - the baby, the dog, the house, the yard, me! I can't be everything ALL the time and still remain sane!
So I wrote, & I wrote, but nothing ever comes out the way it used to. I have become so un-inspired, so un-impressed with all these metaphors I've tried to conjure up. I miss my inspired moments alone - a clean slate of paper, a mix of sloppy letters strategically placed & a broken, bending heart. It only ever happens when I'm severing a tired, ragged rope - it's the month of May, it always has been.
So I wrote, & I wrote, but nothing ever comes out the way it used to. I have become so un-inspired, so un-impressed with all these metaphors I've tried to conjure up. I miss my inspired moments alone - a clean slate of paper, a mix of sloppy letters strategically placed & a broken, bending heart. It only ever happens when I'm severing a tired, ragged rope - it's the month of May, it always has been.
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Being a new mom is a lot to deal with. I can't speak from your perspective, only from that of a dad, so I'll leave the advice to wiser, more knowledgable friends. But if there is every anything I can do for you, just let me know, ok?
I hope you move down here. Regina is a good city, it's got it's bad parts like any other city, but overall, there's really no other place I'd rather be right now (although I love Saskatoon, for many reasons, that city would still be my 2nd choice).
Yup, glad to get otta Calgary, the driving, the parking, the cost of living....it's full of excitement and you can get just about anything you want at a price.....great place to visit, but Regina is a better place to live, for me anyways.
Hope to see you again sometime.
Nobody but you should ever have the right to EXPECT you to be everything, and nobody but you should ever make you feel like nothing. AND when you wrap it all up in a ball and put a pretty bow on it it's nothing but pure truth when I say that lady..... you're a mom. Therefore you can NEVER be nothing and to at least one lil bugger.... you ARE everything. SO THERE!
But yeah. Shit sucks when you're the one shoveling most of it.