tigerwong

This on the heels of the previous entry... ironic, i think.

I really hate being lonely, but i guess i might be stuck with it for a little while longer. I know i'll survive, but i hate it while it's happening. The purpose of it is so that i can focus. I'm sure of that. And i know i'll come out on the other side as a more complete person in and of myself when its all over.

In the meantime i need to stop latching onto people in the hopes that they can fill some void that it's not their job to fill. It's not even something i do overtly; it's mostly in my head, where all of my battles are fought, anyway. In fact, it's always been in my head. No one else really knows what's going on there, and i'm only just now starting to decipher my own thought patterns the actions i've taken that seem to govern how they come about.


"I need to be stronger... have to get tougher..." - Terry Bogard


...and now the song that is stuck in my head, and sounds like how feel right about now...

"Shine, bright morning light
Now in the air
The spring is coming
Sweet blowing wind
Singing down the hills and valleys
Keep your eyes on me
Now we're on the edge of hell
Dear my love
Sweet morning light
Wait for me
You've gone much farther
Too far...."