A minor elaboration...
Cairo was wondering what i meant by "familiarity."
To me, seeing someone you know naked is much different than seeing a stranger naked. It's not just a body, anymore. I could draw any old figure model till i run out of lead and i'd never really feel a thing, but if one of my friends were to model for me (again, in some cases) it would be COMPLETELY different. There'd the be element of "just another job" for some of it, but for the most part i'd really feel more. Maybe a kind of connection to the person in question? Like it's really *that person* i'm capturing on paper, and not just a collection of lines to represent an object.
Same with Cairo, naturally. No matter how many times i see her naked, i'm always kinda phased by it, and it's because she's not just some random naked body, she's MY WIFE. The nudity of someone i have such a deep connection with is sure to be much more important and emotional to me than a stranger.
So as far as why i want to see all of my lady-friends naked... i'm still not sure. I know that it goes beyond base sexual interest, but i'm not sure how far. I know that it's because i have a kind of connection, but i'm not sure what that means and why/how nudity would affect it.
So i'm not sure why i want it. I think now that it's definitely not a new thing, but since i'm actually "allowed" to let my mind process it now, i'm still kinda stuck as to why it's there.
Cairo was wondering what i meant by "familiarity."
To me, seeing someone you know naked is much different than seeing a stranger naked. It's not just a body, anymore. I could draw any old figure model till i run out of lead and i'd never really feel a thing, but if one of my friends were to model for me (again, in some cases) it would be COMPLETELY different. There'd the be element of "just another job" for some of it, but for the most part i'd really feel more. Maybe a kind of connection to the person in question? Like it's really *that person* i'm capturing on paper, and not just a collection of lines to represent an object.
Same with Cairo, naturally. No matter how many times i see her naked, i'm always kinda phased by it, and it's because she's not just some random naked body, she's MY WIFE. The nudity of someone i have such a deep connection with is sure to be much more important and emotional to me than a stranger.
So as far as why i want to see all of my lady-friends naked... i'm still not sure. I know that it goes beyond base sexual interest, but i'm not sure how far. I know that it's because i have a kind of connection, but i'm not sure what that means and why/how nudity would affect it.
So i'm not sure why i want it. I think now that it's definitely not a new thing, but since i'm actually "allowed" to let my mind process it now, i'm still kinda stuck as to why it's there.
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infinity:
Nice meeting you at ECCT this past weekend!
arbitraria:
aww thanks! 'tis never a problem to chuck a flag for a bunch of fabulous people. you look absolutely gorgeous in a dress, btw.