The pain is eating away at my mind and soul like a virous. In my life, when I feel this suffocating veil of darkness over my spirit I retreat. In the comfort of my walled defenses I hope to find some semblance of order.
I'm leaving SG. It's just too painful to look at beautiful women and have "pretend" interactions with them when in my...
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I'm leaving SG. It's just too painful to look at beautiful women and have "pretend" interactions with them when in my...
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Expect nothing, anticipate everything.
Chaos
One thing is for certain change is constant.
Nothing lasts forever.
Lonliness, my constant mistress from the past, has returned and all that was known are now
Memories.
Chaos
One thing is for certain change is constant.
Nothing lasts forever.
Lonliness, my constant mistress from the past, has returned and all that was known are now
Memories.
demoivre:
Bummer. Hang in there, my friend. Just keep breathing.
Bummer. Hang in there, my friend. Just keep breathing.
astrokreep23:
Read the last few pages. I feel for you, man.
Me and the Mistress... We go way back.
Me and the Mistress... We go way back.
I've lost my smile and can't seem to find it.
demoivre:
Oh, it's on the emoticon page. Happens to me too....
Okay, that was bad. I'm sorry. What's up?
Okay, that was bad. I'm sorry. What's up?
A Heart to Give
There once was a little boy who knew nothing about love. He had no one to teach him and so he took off into the world to find out on his own.
He first met a kindly woman who took him in to be with her family. She fed him and gave him his own room, but made sure he worked...
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There once was a little boy who knew nothing about love. He had no one to teach him and so he took off into the world to find out on his own.
He first met a kindly woman who took him in to be with her family. She fed him and gave him his own room, but made sure he worked...
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fractal:
sad...
but mmmm.....incest...shit i meant apple pie
but mmmm.....incest...shit i meant apple pie
doubleo:
you know, i have the feeling that i am becoming better at self-dissilusionment. Kind of a self imposed ignorance is bliss. But damn it, i wish I would learn quicker. Oh well.
Probably not the best attitude but fuck it all. Its the best I can do. Anyway, thought I'd say hey to a fellow central coaster.
Probably not the best attitude but fuck it all. Its the best I can do. Anyway, thought I'd say hey to a fellow central coaster.
I had this great thought I wanted to share; something that was said to me when I was 19 or 20 I think. But the more I thought of it, the more it just sounded niave and simplistic.
WIth so many lives crossing paths everyday, and so many ideas of what the "meaning of life" is, there seems to be a great amount of, for...
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WIth so many lives crossing paths everyday, and so many ideas of what the "meaning of life" is, there seems to be a great amount of, for...
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temptess:
We are the blind leading the blind, man. 
'tis something I designed about the rise of the goddess back from the hell of christiandom...
[Edited on May 26, 2003]
'tis something I designed about the rise of the goddess back from the hell of christiandom...
[Edited on May 26, 2003]
astrokreep23:
Guy in the mirror? You mean the guy with a pointy goatee and red horns? How did YOU know about him!
Mind, body, spirit - a balancing act of three important elements that can lead to enlightenment or just making one whole (yes, i'm going to wax philosophically today so deal with it ).
This has become more apparent in recent days as I started working out again after about laying off it for a year. I find daily excercise of about 30 - 40 minutes...
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This has become more apparent in recent days as I started working out again after about laying off it for a year. I find daily excercise of about 30 - 40 minutes...
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kristi:
dom is definately always a good thing!!! Mmhmm..
temptess:
So true! Those are EXACTLY the kind of guys who don't give you the goods...
Wow, will you be my trainer
Wow, will you be my trainer
Back from Boston! Damn I'm tired - flew 9 hours with three stop-overs yesterday (ugh). WIsh I had stayed another day though. Didn't see nearly enough or get the chance to participate in any debauchery. 
Stayed at a very cool hotel called 90 on Tremont St. - right across from a cemetary that had Sam Adams (the beer maker / patriot), Paul Revere (sp?), John...
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Stayed at a very cool hotel called 90 on Tremont St. - right across from a cemetary that had Sam Adams (the beer maker / patriot), Paul Revere (sp?), John...
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temptess:
You back? Oh, yeah, I just read your entry... I really wanted to go out to dinner last night and I am so lame I didn't have anyone to go with! I thought of you but lamented. You were gone...
Sounds like you had a good time. (jealous)
Sounds like you had a good time. (jealous)
astrokreep23:
Welcome back!
Darkness outside cloaks all the mischief going on tonight. Predator and prey, misbegotten misfits, loners and the lonely, take shelter in the night's forgiving embrace. All can be anything they want until the harsh reality of morning peaks through the cracks of bedrooms and bars, of jail cells, and living rooms. Down alleyways and sidewalks, in parks and in front of shelters, the warm sun...
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astrokreep23:
All Hail Debauchery!!!!!
temptess:
I don't play any ball sports and I don't ski. There, something i don't do. Two things actually
Debauchery is good. Morning always frightens me. Does my breath smell bad? lol
Debauchery is good. Morning always frightens me. Does my breath smell bad? lol
Came across a site recently (no pun intended) regarding female ejaculation. It talked about the methods of stimulating the clit then the g-spot in the effort to help the woman you're with experience something only 20% of women get the chance to know. It was very interesting - the site was CAKE, or something like that. Now I just need to find someone who wants...
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thorn2:
yes.... research is good, you can never know enough about Women (although I still get myself in trouble with them!)
temptess:
Yeah the shower head is clean and easy, no worry about whether it will call you the next day!
How? Because you're a perv!
How? Because you're a perv!
Well, today is starting out much better now that Fearless leader (aka Temptess) is back with SG and the SGSB group. (a gang of goth-looking cheerleaders in black mini-skirts wave their middle fingers in slaute to my excitement)...oh well, at least I'm happy
Grey clouds overhead today - isn't this Southern CAL? oh well. Going to Boston next week for a show. If anyone knows...
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Grey clouds overhead today - isn't this Southern CAL? oh well. Going to Boston next week for a show. If anyone knows...
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thorn2:
....I crack myself up 
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lads:
Dude! You own a trade show building firm? Your in Oxnard? Do you know Benny from West Coast Displays in Camarillo formily of Exhibit Masters? Just a shot in the dark, but I might have meet you at one time or another for SEMA trade show ideas.
I'm so pissed off right now about what I learned - go see SGSB Group board for details on Temptess if you are looking for her..... 
Some people need to grow the fuck up!
Some people need to grow the fuck up!
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astrokreep23:
hey I'll grow up when I fucking....oh we aren't talking about me are we?
I'm gonna write LE right now! very humbley mind you.
I'm gonna write LE right now! very humbley mind you.
itsalivemedia:
Check it out...there she is! 
Nothing new today, just same old shit. Need a vacation though - someplace where the ocean is light blue and you can see down to the bottom...the sand is white, the sky is the same color as the water with small, white clouds lazily drifting by....
You could sit and fish, or climb a coconut tree, or just snorkle around the shore. Ahhhhhh, I can...
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You could sit and fish, or climb a coconut tree, or just snorkle around the shore. Ahhhhhh, I can...
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*beats you on the head*