thewintersoldier

I have seen God, I have read God's supposed word, and it is printed with hypocrisy and contradiction, bigotry and hatred, innocent blood and unnecessary death, yer god is a sinner, your god sets the example for what we are supposedly forgiven for, blame your god for original sin, blame your god for your ceaseless lack of self-satisfaction. Your god that provides so weel for his followers, but what of the homeless? what of the persectution of races and homosexuals in biblical text under the commands of your god?


anywho, updates on me.... terrified towards life at the moment. A great friend of mine I have known since I was 6 YEARS OLD and have been in a bunch of lasting bands with recently told me that he was getting married... and then i found out he is getting married because he got his girlfriend pregnant... and he lives in his band room and she has no job... and he only makes like a grand a month... I am terrified for them, I guess I can be a bit of a worrier but I am terrified for them. I also know that he cheated on her and I want to talk to him about him and tell him he should tell her but I don't want to be held responsible for them calling off their marriage. and i am gonna be there at their wedding basically saying "yeah good luck with life guys." This drummer was the one who claims to be a devout christian... this guy who supposedly claimed straight edge for the rest of his life. and now he is going to ruin a child's life, and his wife's life... and his own... and it's killing me...

I am terrified of girls lately because of this... but at the same time feeling really lonely and just wishing I had a girl who could really say that she loved me, and that was there to talk to. I called my ex girlfriend who I am still really good friends with and who is best friends with the drummer's fiance and she is terrified for them too. And all they can tell me is "God will provide." I am so angry at their blind, ingorant, religious crutch.

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!

someone console me