thewintersoldier

what I have so far on my book:

...fucking alarm... fucking life... an undying cycle of endless routine. And if it hands itself off to another day of the same complaints, the same repetitive system of finding ways to piss me off, I am simply going to dismember myself. What I wouldn't give to abandon all responsibility... turn into a fucking child, hand over all...
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no one has read or commented on my journal entries on like the last 4... and I have been writing a book. So I am gonna post what I have on the book so far and no one is going to read it... and that makes me mad.

...Fucking alarm... What I wouldn't give to abandon all responsibility... turn into a fucking child, hand over...
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I wrote a new song... and it is so photographic... and real... I feel like I am walking through ressurected memories... it is some serious shit...

She glances over, and lets her eyes just gently draw this in,
and she caves, and she cuts away at the roots of her of any childish ambition.
Shes giving up hope, brushes away the smoke, and welcomes the...
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Je danse seulement dans votre ombre, et vous coutez seulement quand je ne parle pas. Je souhaite le soleil pourrait briller dans moi, je souhaitent que je pourrais faire une ombre moi-mme. Je souhaite que je pourrais attirer votre attention. Le monde est exactement comment vous lesdites choses seriez. Histoires courtes sans hros... aucune demoiselle dans la dtresse. Un coeur cass... et une chance oublie....
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It's been a long time sing I have updated this, and I am sorry. Things have been a roller coaster for me. I started seeing this girl i really, really thought was awesome... and my band started to share a practice room with no use for a name... potential for some real help now. I have been given 40 hours a week at work again...
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to know what is going on in my life see my last entry:

With her self defeating breathing pattern she welcomes in a cigarette, then collapses her lungs as they press hard to force out the smoke, a smoke that clouds her view of the scene developing around her but shes frigid to the concept, the metal of the barrel clicks against his teeth, She...
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God, I am glowing today, I got to go see the singer from my favorite band (thrice) play solo and acoustic in S.F. last night and I was in love... the second guy was sooo good and then dustin came on... and was simply amazing. He covered elvis costello twice, sinead o'conner, counting crows, and played two of his own and a bunch of thrice...
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Today I am ecstatic, I bought some thing I have wanted for a long time.
I bought love and sex on dvd which is like one of my favorite movies of all time because it is cute yet witty and passionate and still real, it's a romantic comedy that does not get too flowery or out there, it is real life, holds and to real...
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"when a person is subjected to coercive persuasion without his knowledge or consent... [he may] develop serious and sometimes irreversible physical and psychiatric disorders, up to and including schizophrenia, self-mutilation, and suicide."United States v. Lee 455 U.S. 252, 257-258 (1982), the California Supreme Court


I've been left behind... everyone's moving on... I'm tired of being poor, not being in love... not being on tour...

I've...
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someone needs to fucking love me... or I am going out with a shotgun and forcing it on people....

hey, nothing really to report, put myself in some serious financial debt, now I am just in debt to my parents... tired of being poor but looking for a second job, written some great new music, and loving te bands more. Gonna start buckling down and at least recording some solo stuff. Aug is gonna be a great day for shows, killswitch in sac, solo...
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hey, hung out with ginger pants again, top notch chick... working on some new music, wishing I had more money and more tattoos hahah. Other than that, this is a sad update