thewineguy

The crushing pressure of the holidays. Part 1

What is it about this time of year that makes you feel so lonely and miserable? Ive been living the same lousy life all year long, but this time of year shines the flashlight so bright on my predicaments. As I spent another day off, yesterday, in the company of myself it stung more than it would have in March. If someone approached me with a gun and said "what do you have to live for?" Id just shrug, maybe mumble something about some wines and whiskeys I have not tried yet, but in all honestly, I am a live because I am terribly afraid of death, and I am holding out hope that against all odds I am going to meet someone who understands what the hell I am talking about, that I can enjoy doing mundane things with, and that I dont drive up the wall. I am not trying to be morbid, and I am really not very depressed, I am just aware of my situation, my prospects, and reality. The days blend together, I enjoy the small things in life, because the big things are terrible. The awesome lunch I made today, is a wonderful distraction from the lousy life I am living. Off to work, stay tuned for part 2 where Keith lashes out at all those happier than he is.