SO, IVE BEEN THINKIN A LOT LATELY..ON ONE HAND I CAN BE A MODEL, IF I GIVE IT MY ALL..ON THE OTHER HAND I CAN STILL GO TO COLLEGE FOR GRAPHIC DESIGN(BEFORE I GET TOO OLD TO FINISH MY DEGREE)..DO I EVEN HAVE A CHANCE TO PURSUE EITHER ONE??DO I EVEN HAVE THE POTENTIAL??MY GIRLS ARE THE REASON WHY I EVEN TRY..IF I FAIL, IT WASNT MEANT TO BE..BUT IF I SUCCEED, WHAT CAN IT POSSIBLY BRING ME??I CAME FROM NOTHING AND I HAVE NO PROBLEM STAYING WHERE I AM..I TRY FOR MY GIRLS..HOW WILL I EVER KNOW IF IT COULDA BEEN IF I DONT AT LEAST TRY..AND ON THAT NOTE, TRYING IS SETTING YOURSELF UP FOR FAILURE, I WAS TOLD..ITS WHAT YOU ACTUALLY DO THAT LEADS YOU TO SUCCESS..EVEN IF ITS NOT WHAT YOU HAD IN MIND..JUS REMEMBER, YOU R WHO U R, AND WHAT U MAKE OF YOURSELF, BUT ITS YOUR KIDS WHO MATTER MOST..THERE IS NO TIME TO BE SELFISH OR PUT ANY BLAME ON ANYONE..YOUR KIDS ARE ALL YOU NEED IN LIFE....AS A MOTHER OF TWO GIRLS, AND A SON WHO HAS PASSED, I APPRECIATE LIFE..AND NO MATTER WHAT IT THROWS AT YOU OR HOW TOUGH IT GETS, THEY ARE THE REASON TO WAKE UP EVERY MORNING..EVEN IF THEY DONT LIVE TO SEE THE NEXT DAY, OR THE REST OF THEIR LIFE AT THAT..AS LONG AS YOU WERE THERE FOR EM, AND YOU CARED AND YOU TRIED WITH ALL OF YOUR MIGHT AND HEART TO SAVE EM..GOD HAS HIS PLAN FOR EVERYONE....LIFE IS A LESSON.. ITS NOT FAIR, AND ITS BEST LEARNED HARD....