Makes my nerd heart patter....

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I have never felt myself to be attractive. It's probably one of the hardest things that I had to get over in my life. Growing up I had always been very self conscious about my weight and thought I was too ugly to ever have a women of the opposite sex choose me. It wasn't until recently that I started to feel like it was...
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kaicito:
Good for you! I wish I could even remember a time when women checked me out :-)
rubblerocks:
Good for you. Imagine what it's going to be like several months from now. After Basic you're going to be cut!!

Goodbyes and hellos.

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It's always surprising who is willing to say good bye and who conviently ignores you. Since I'm leaving in less then three weeks I thought I would be able to say good bye to a lot do important people on my life. Some friends that I had not seen in a while. That's when I started to be surprised on who was willing so far...
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wanderlust_:
Good luck on your adventure!! <3
theslowrunner:
@wanderlust_ Aw, thank you! I'm hoping I kill it at my boot camp! :-D

Why I want to be a...

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I was looking at another one of these blog suggestion from Missy and I had an idea. Why doesn't the male side of this have a version for themselves. A lot of us can't become a SG....Whether it be for practical reasons like not have the genitalia or more extravagant reasons....We just can afford the sex change operation (yet). I propose I am going to...
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vixie:
Congratz on almost reaching what you want to do! I have a couple friends in the marines. Much respect to those that serve xx
theslowrunner:
@cheetahsuicide Thanks! I'm hoping that something clicks when I finally make it. We will see but I have been excited about this and recently is the first time I have been confident that I will get to boot. I feel like anything is possible with all that I have had to do these past couple of years. 

Just got my Valentines present from my Ex.

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I wonder if this is my only place to be weak anywhere. I don't allow myself to show anything of this in front of my family, friends or loved ones. So, whoever ends up responding, shaking their head or even reading. Thank you. I may not be a beautiful woman with tattoos but I am a person like anyone else here. Thank you.

Recently I...
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theslowrunner:
@damian_stark Thanks! I took me a long time to get over her. I'm hoping that these next few weeks will be steps I take to move on. I'm lucky enough to have some closure. It's more than many others. 
ansku:
That's good :3 and you're welcome sweetie ! @theslowrunner

Having a hard, Lonely night.

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Just listening to music and waiting to go to bed. I really want time to skip forward until I can workout again and turn off my mind for a little bit.

Vance Joy- Riptide. I can't stop listening to this song.

Kings of Leon- Knocked Up.

The Shins- Simple Song

rubblerocks:
I know that feeling all to well. Hope things turn around soon.

Having a hard, Lonely night.

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Just listening to music and waiting to go to bed. I really want time to skip forward until I can workout again and turn off my mind for a little bit.

Vance Joy- Riptide. I can't stop listening to this song.

Kings of Leon- Knocked Up.

The Shins- Simple Song

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theslowrunner:
@almost_missed Doing well enough! I am down to 197 and working my ass off. I got about a month left here before I go away for 3 months at basic. Just working the grind as much as I can. What about you! How have you been?
almost_missed:
Swimming through my notes again bro! my exams are coming up in 2 weeks and I can;t wait till they are over! I'll finally be able to find the time for some recreational activities! Really stoked and anxious for your big day man! Ill be rooting for you ^^

Ramble ramble ramble....And MUSIQUE!

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I have a lot on my mind. I just finished my paperwork for leaving soon, rejected by my friend and another strange sensation of rejection.

I guess what bothers me the most right now is my impending leaving. I don't think I am coming back to the home I've lived any time soon. I have been here for near 15 years in the same home....
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theslowrunner:
@espy Oh, by the way I think it's the most amazing thing that you are a tattooed airforce woman. It's never easy but it is amazing. 
espy:
It's cool. I think it's pretty awesome whenever I see a person joining. The military isn't for everyone but since you're joining the corp, that's a brotherhood- for life whether it's one enlistment or retirement. It's for life. Lol. Regardless, good luck with that. And there's a lot of tattooed military. Lol. 

It's just became very real.

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This is how I look now. Well, a couple of weeks ago. I am down to 202 from my scale at home. I have the IST in a week that I plan on passing. 60+ situps in two minutes, 5+ pull ups (until failure), then mile and a half run...Which last time I did that was at 10:58. I am hoping to shave off 20
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robertnagiel:
From what I'm told, the Marines specialize in changing your outlook. 
almost_missed:
I wanna say something but I guess I don't have anything to say just that I feel bad for you bro if reality slaps me in the face that hard I'll be freaking out too! But man this is such a big change for you, I can only give you my well wishes and know that I am supporting you in spirit. I hope that the best will turn out for you, be the person who you are deep down inside, stay real and remember they maybe better than you at first but in the end if you have the will you can overcome anything and even be better. I'm going to the gym now. I'll be posting my results in the future. Keep in touch bro! :D

Music.

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I thought about sharing some of my favorite music instead of trying to be all serious with my blog.

Cage the Elephant- Come A Little Closer.

Metric - Help, I'm alive. (Acoustic)

Modest Mouse - Little Motel

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naeli:
Not sure if you're all that into music with no vocals but you should definitely check out Helios! :) Vocally speaking, The Tallest Man On Earth & The Avett Brothers are pretty nice too!
theslowrunner:
@NAELI Sweet! I have some music to catch up on now. I'm checking out Helios right now with their Eingya album on Spotify. I will make sure to check out the rest too. :-D

Marine Corps...

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I have to ask myself why did I decide to join the military and at that the Marine Corps. The physically hardest branch to join that I could decide.

I have been wanting to join the military for some time. It isn't my first option but with the circumstances surrounding my life it's the best choice for me. I have siblings and a future to...
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almost_missed:
from the military* >.<
horror_head:
Yeah, @almost_missed put it really well. After reading bits of your past blogs and knowing how successful you've been initially, it sounds like you'll do great!
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