i love my mom more than anything. right now she's going through some really hard family stuff. rather, we all are, but...i think it's affected her the most because she's right there. she can't leave it or ignore it. i on the other hand don't live with them, so most of the time....i push it to the very very back of my mind and do my best to act like it's not there. yeah, i'm the queen of denial.
so my mom has been taking anti-depressants. and i fucking hate it. she really needs them and i understand this, but...she's so fucking coked out. half the time she's drowsy and out of it. she is constantly asking me about things we've already talked about, because she can't remember. she didn't even bother to tell me she started taking this shit. she called me one day and said she was having trouble with her medicine. she takes a few things for blood pressure and other things, so i asked her which one. she starts slurring and all this madness. i have to ask her what the hell she's talking about. she took it upon herself to decide to take more than the prescribed amount. she was so fucking out of it. it really breaks my heart. i've never seen my mom like this. she's always been the strong one, the one who took care of us all. and i don't mind taking care of her, i just don't know how to. and that hurts.
so, happy birthday mom. i love you. and next year will be better, i promise.
so my mom has been taking anti-depressants. and i fucking hate it. she really needs them and i understand this, but...she's so fucking coked out. half the time she's drowsy and out of it. she is constantly asking me about things we've already talked about, because she can't remember. she didn't even bother to tell me she started taking this shit. she called me one day and said she was having trouble with her medicine. she takes a few things for blood pressure and other things, so i asked her which one. she starts slurring and all this madness. i have to ask her what the hell she's talking about. she took it upon herself to decide to take more than the prescribed amount. she was so fucking out of it. it really breaks my heart. i've never seen my mom like this. she's always been the strong one, the one who took care of us all. and i don't mind taking care of her, i just don't know how to. and that hurts.
so, happy birthday mom. i love you. and next year will be better, i promise.
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wish I could help more, but as you said to me, back to you. I'm always around if you need to talk.
although it never turns out to be a good way to deal, i still continue to do things that way. just stubborn i guess. Anti-depressants are no fun also, my mom was on them when she was sick, and my dad was afterwards, i was asked if i wanted to go on them but i said "no thanks"
hope things get better, and happy birthday to your mom