Hello there SG Land!!
As always, a big thanks to those of you kind enough to leave supportive comments on the last blog. I really appreciate your continued support through this.
It's been a few weeks since my last blog, because I haven't really felt like blogging much lately, and also because my situation hasn't changed yet. You must be getting fed up of hearing about my problems...
I thought I'd leave it until I actually had some news.
Had my last acupuncture appointment on Tuesday, and the physio thinks it's pointless continuing the treatment because my pain levels had been serioiusly high again since my 5th appointment, and the 6th appointment didn't make any difference either.
Had the nerve block injection yesterday, and I was told that I should see results within a week (like when I had the steroid injection in my groin, but that didn't work), but there's been no marked improvement so far.
The guy from the pain clinic didn't seem to have much hope of this helping, so that's not a good sign. He still thinks that surgery is the best option for me, if only the surgeons felt the same way...
It seems like I will have to be referred for surgery soon though, because the surgeons fobbed me off and said that I should try all methods of pain relief first. There aren't many more methods of pain relief available to me, apart from using a TENS machine.
Physio has booked me in for that in 3 weeks time, since the acupuncture wasn't helping.
I'm pissed off with the surgeons though, because I could have had the surgery done last year, and it would never have gotten this bad. I'm fed up of being passed on from one doctor to another without really getting anywhere...
On top of that, my mood has been getting progressively worse and I'm permanently gloomy. I think I've still got 3 weeks before I should hear from a counsellor, and the antidepressants I was prescribed aren't helping yet. I've got to continue taking one a night for another 2 weeks, before seeing my doctor again to see what else they can suggest.
It's frustrating, because my confidence is at an all time low. I can't seem to cope with noisy, crowded places (we went out for dinner last weekend and I couldn't get out of there fast enough!), and I'd noticed a while ago that I've started stammering when I speak. At first it was only occasionally, when I hadn't quite thought through what I was going to say, but now it's happening way too frequently, even when I know what I want to say...
Sorry, I wish I had some better news for you, but things seem to be getting progressively worse for me, with no light at the end of the tunnel yet.
On a lighter note, things didn't work out with my Mistress I met on Fetlife. I'm kinda new to the submissive lifestyle, and I felt ready for a Mistress, but not ready to be Owned yet. I missed making my own decisions, so I asked her to release me last week.
I have developed a strong bond with a lovely Dom on Fetlife though, and we've been messaging everyday. We both support each other and we make each other feel special, which is great, because I can't remember the last time I felt special. She's my Dom-Wife, and I'm her Sub-Hub.
We haven't made our relationship official on Fetlife yet, out of respect for my former Mistress.
Time for a music share:
As always, a big thanks to those of you kind enough to leave supportive comments on the last blog. I really appreciate your continued support through this.
It's been a few weeks since my last blog, because I haven't really felt like blogging much lately, and also because my situation hasn't changed yet. You must be getting fed up of hearing about my problems...
I thought I'd leave it until I actually had some news.
Had my last acupuncture appointment on Tuesday, and the physio thinks it's pointless continuing the treatment because my pain levels had been serioiusly high again since my 5th appointment, and the 6th appointment didn't make any difference either.
Had the nerve block injection yesterday, and I was told that I should see results within a week (like when I had the steroid injection in my groin, but that didn't work), but there's been no marked improvement so far.
The guy from the pain clinic didn't seem to have much hope of this helping, so that's not a good sign. He still thinks that surgery is the best option for me, if only the surgeons felt the same way...
It seems like I will have to be referred for surgery soon though, because the surgeons fobbed me off and said that I should try all methods of pain relief first. There aren't many more methods of pain relief available to me, apart from using a TENS machine.
Physio has booked me in for that in 3 weeks time, since the acupuncture wasn't helping.
I'm pissed off with the surgeons though, because I could have had the surgery done last year, and it would never have gotten this bad. I'm fed up of being passed on from one doctor to another without really getting anywhere...
On top of that, my mood has been getting progressively worse and I'm permanently gloomy. I think I've still got 3 weeks before I should hear from a counsellor, and the antidepressants I was prescribed aren't helping yet. I've got to continue taking one a night for another 2 weeks, before seeing my doctor again to see what else they can suggest.
It's frustrating, because my confidence is at an all time low. I can't seem to cope with noisy, crowded places (we went out for dinner last weekend and I couldn't get out of there fast enough!), and I'd noticed a while ago that I've started stammering when I speak. At first it was only occasionally, when I hadn't quite thought through what I was going to say, but now it's happening way too frequently, even when I know what I want to say...
Sorry, I wish I had some better news for you, but things seem to be getting progressively worse for me, with no light at the end of the tunnel yet.
On a lighter note, things didn't work out with my Mistress I met on Fetlife. I'm kinda new to the submissive lifestyle, and I felt ready for a Mistress, but not ready to be Owned yet. I missed making my own decisions, so I asked her to release me last week.
I have developed a strong bond with a lovely Dom on Fetlife though, and we've been messaging everyday. We both support each other and we make each other feel special, which is great, because I can't remember the last time I felt special. She's my Dom-Wife, and I'm her Sub-Hub.
We haven't made our relationship official on Fetlife yet, out of respect for my former Mistress.
Time for a music share:
That's about it for this blog, so I'll finish with the usual request for more love for the following lovely ladies.
Live long and prosper.
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abjabber:
I'm sure you'll find a solution eventually. Hopefully sooner than later. Hang in there and take care.
cadavre:
Really hope both the antidepressants and the nerve block give you some relief, or someone will finally see that surgery is the only option