I had a entry for ya, but it got eaten. So Imma try again.
Quick update:
Went to the clinic today for my Intake appointment. I talked w/ the lady, she asked me some questions about my family history, my symptoms and all that shit. At the end, she told that she'll assign me a doctor who'll prescribe some medication for me next week. So basically I waited a month for this appointment just so I can wait some more. YAY ME!!!!
As you may or may not know, I've been going through depression. That and some anixety issues. Like the other day, I was walking through the store and I had this overwhelming feeling of anxiousness, like everybody was watching me, judging me. It was unreal. I know they weren't looking at me, but I couldn't help but feel that.
Also, last week I had a panic attack. My heart was beating a million times a second, my thoughts was racing by, I couldn't focus on one thing and my hands were shaking. On top of that I was obsessed over the door of the house: like I'll drive off, think about the door and if I locked it or not, drive back, check the door, drive out a little further, think about the door again, drive back, check it, drive out a little further more, think about the stereo, drive back and check on that but by then the panic attack went away.
I've been taking steps to stop it: breathing exercises; studying buddhism, trying to maintain my focus so my mind won't wander and dwell on the negative. I've been doing some reading: Mumbo Jumbo by Ishmael Reed, Nova by Samuel R. Delany. I'm gonna get "Dharma Punx" by Noah Levine next plus some more books on Buddhism and meditation.
On the job front, I had the interview for the Lead Organizer position yesterday. It went pretty good, though I kinda rambled on in some parts, but I still made my point. Plus, I have experience in the areas they were looking for, so I should be a good candidate.
Anyway, that's it. I'm out bitches!!!!
Quick update:
Went to the clinic today for my Intake appointment. I talked w/ the lady, she asked me some questions about my family history, my symptoms and all that shit. At the end, she told that she'll assign me a doctor who'll prescribe some medication for me next week. So basically I waited a month for this appointment just so I can wait some more. YAY ME!!!!
As you may or may not know, I've been going through depression. That and some anixety issues. Like the other day, I was walking through the store and I had this overwhelming feeling of anxiousness, like everybody was watching me, judging me. It was unreal. I know they weren't looking at me, but I couldn't help but feel that.
Also, last week I had a panic attack. My heart was beating a million times a second, my thoughts was racing by, I couldn't focus on one thing and my hands were shaking. On top of that I was obsessed over the door of the house: like I'll drive off, think about the door and if I locked it or not, drive back, check the door, drive out a little further, think about the door again, drive back, check it, drive out a little further more, think about the stereo, drive back and check on that but by then the panic attack went away.
I've been taking steps to stop it: breathing exercises; studying buddhism, trying to maintain my focus so my mind won't wander and dwell on the negative. I've been doing some reading: Mumbo Jumbo by Ishmael Reed, Nova by Samuel R. Delany. I'm gonna get "Dharma Punx" by Noah Levine next plus some more books on Buddhism and meditation.
On the job front, I had the interview for the Lead Organizer position yesterday. It went pretty good, though I kinda rambled on in some parts, but I still made my point. Plus, I have experience in the areas they were looking for, so I should be a good candidate.
Anyway, that's it. I'm out bitches!!!!
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notoriousdug:
Yeah, the one book of his I read pretty much left me slack jawed by the end. His writing and stories are just so far out in left field but so much fun to read; for me part of the fun was trying to make sure I deciphered all the slang correctly like reading Irvine Welsh but with a more American/urban slant.
tigerwong:
i didn't even bother with "the legend of chun li." i knew that was going to be shit too. If that pops up on youtube i'll check it out and see how much i can stand.