Happy Fourth of July Mother Fuckers, Father Fuckers, Son Fuckers, Daughter Fuckers, Only Child Fuckers, Self Fuckers, whoever you're fucking Happy Fourth of July!!!!!!!
So we had some down time at work around ten and there were people near the roundhouse setting off fireworks, and some of them had obviously put some money into it all. Damn good fireworks, one of my favorite inventions ever, those fireworks.
Watched them for about ten minutes or so before getting called to do something and then ran back to them shortly after, and the darker it got the better they got, the only bad thing was all the lights we have in our parking lot. At first I was sent back to the wonderment of a child watching random elements explode in the sky in various colors. Ooohing and Aahing at the shapes and sounds of it all. Then something happened within my head that made me start wondering about other things.
I started thinking about what I want in the future with a woman, how I want to attend events and activities with the woman in my life and share that with her. I envisioned watching the fireworks with my girl standing close in front of me, my arms wrapped loosely around her as we stare into the night sky. I smiled to myself but suddenly felt lonely for the first time in years. My co-workers were telling stories of mishaps with small and large explosions while unknownst to them I was quitely wishing for something more.
I don't know if I was yearning for my friend sister or just a woman in general, but I have to admit that Jo is the one that stirred these thoughts in my head, she is the one that woke them from hibernation. I like the girl and the more I think of her the more I wonder, hope, and yearn for something more in my life, whether it is with her or whoever. It was then that I realized why I had stayed single and hadn't looked, I didn't have to admit I was lonely that way.
See I convinced myself that living with my parents, whether it be so I can get on top of my student loans and save for the future or not, was something that meant I wasn't in the right place to date. My car is kind of shitty but it runs good and gets me from point a to point b and keeps me going as I save for a newer, nicer pickup. I live in my hometown so that I can take care of these things and prepare for the future but will move one day and then I can go crazy with it all. For some reason with Jo I told her all these things, my dirty dark secrets, the things that aren't my favorite in my life, and she was cool with it all, as you can hope an un-shallow (un-shallow=good english huh?) girl will.
So yeah, I don't know that it will be Jo, but suddenly I find myself wanting that extra thing in my life, that extra someone, and of course all the joy, pain, work, toil, ease and everything else that comes with it.
So we had some down time at work around ten and there were people near the roundhouse setting off fireworks, and some of them had obviously put some money into it all. Damn good fireworks, one of my favorite inventions ever, those fireworks.
Watched them for about ten minutes or so before getting called to do something and then ran back to them shortly after, and the darker it got the better they got, the only bad thing was all the lights we have in our parking lot. At first I was sent back to the wonderment of a child watching random elements explode in the sky in various colors. Ooohing and Aahing at the shapes and sounds of it all. Then something happened within my head that made me start wondering about other things.
I started thinking about what I want in the future with a woman, how I want to attend events and activities with the woman in my life and share that with her. I envisioned watching the fireworks with my girl standing close in front of me, my arms wrapped loosely around her as we stare into the night sky. I smiled to myself but suddenly felt lonely for the first time in years. My co-workers were telling stories of mishaps with small and large explosions while unknownst to them I was quitely wishing for something more.
I don't know if I was yearning for my friend sister or just a woman in general, but I have to admit that Jo is the one that stirred these thoughts in my head, she is the one that woke them from hibernation. I like the girl and the more I think of her the more I wonder, hope, and yearn for something more in my life, whether it is with her or whoever. It was then that I realized why I had stayed single and hadn't looked, I didn't have to admit I was lonely that way.
See I convinced myself that living with my parents, whether it be so I can get on top of my student loans and save for the future or not, was something that meant I wasn't in the right place to date. My car is kind of shitty but it runs good and gets me from point a to point b and keeps me going as I save for a newer, nicer pickup. I live in my hometown so that I can take care of these things and prepare for the future but will move one day and then I can go crazy with it all. For some reason with Jo I told her all these things, my dirty dark secrets, the things that aren't my favorite in my life, and she was cool with it all, as you can hope an un-shallow (un-shallow=good english huh?) girl will.
So yeah, I don't know that it will be Jo, but suddenly I find myself wanting that extra thing in my life, that extra someone, and of course all the joy, pain, work, toil, ease and everything else that comes with it.
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I really enjoy asking all of the questions cultural anthropologists do - but at the same time I'm really into forensics, I like being hands-on, so I thought archeology might be more up my ally.
It's so amazing to meet someone who has already gone down the road I'm pursuing - now I can pepper you with all sorts of questions >
xoxo
Vih