Guess who might just have one of those office jobs he's been busting his ass for? Yep...Me, but we'll see. I'm still not going to get my hopes up. But it is the company both my parents work for, a company that's huge on hiring family. Either way, I think I'm gonna get a second job in the mean time, to make some much needed extra cash.

I still have alot of growing up to do. I realize that's alot of my problem...

An ex's father once told me "You can't really love anyone until you love yourself first"...It's sappy shit, but more and more I understand. I won't explain how I'm beginning to understand, it's rather emo...But I do understand.

I miss it all...Everything that would be there that isn't. I know I'm not ready, but it doesn't change that I care and that I miss it.

I'm about to head out and meet a bunch of people to watch Land of the Dead, yet again. It should be fun.