the_gentleman

Well what a fucking night...

Someone I love, more than I could ever tell her, was given some information that put her in a very awkward position. I really don't feel like airing that issue on here...

But, just after that conversation...I come inside to find my dad, sitting on the stairs...He started asking me about single men from Atlantia (where I used to work) that owned property...The issues with my step mom have apparently gotten worse...I think she's openly cheating on my dad now. I don't even think she's in our house at the moment...Which is why I think he asked about this guy, who I don't know. This is the second time in my life that a marriage that my parents (one or the other) has been involved in where this has happened.

I don't think I'm going to sleep at all tonight...

Fuck you all from the bottom of my heart.

*UPDATE*
My dad's staying at a hotel for the week...He thinks it's better this way...not having to worry about where she is or who she's with. When he's at the hotel he doesn't know whether she's at home or not...Whereas at home, he can sort of tell when she's not there and it gets to him.

A wonderful girl sat on the phone with me this morning...I almost cried (about this whole thing with my dad...I'm really sad for him)...I don't cry, and I didn't, but I was really fucking close. I was choked up and couldn't talk because I was gagging on all of my words. I was being fucking emo... She helped me through it, she's helped me through alot. I don't think she knows what she means to me. But she knows that I love her.