Uhh, yeah.
So I feel like I am lost and a little out of control. People keep looking to me for guidance. It's kinda like the blind leading the blind here...
Funny how the most unexpected events/ chance meetings can have the strongest impact on your life. I didn't expect to be here. I don't quite know what I expected really. I can feel something...
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So I feel like I am lost and a little out of control. People keep looking to me for guidance. It's kinda like the blind leading the blind here...
Funny how the most unexpected events/ chance meetings can have the strongest impact on your life. I didn't expect to be here. I don't quite know what I expected really. I can feel something...
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This obscenity follows me
wherever I go
and I believe that no one will know
my dirty little secrets
but they already know
and simply chatter quietly amongst
themselves
he told them what he had
no right to tell
and he apologized not for his own,
but someone else's words...
coming to me in the dark of night
to defame and defile
extracting goodness little...
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wherever I go
and I believe that no one will know
my dirty little secrets
but they already know
and simply chatter quietly amongst
themselves
he told them what he had
no right to tell
and he apologized not for his own,
but someone else's words...
coming to me in the dark of night
to defame and defile
extracting goodness little...
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demoivre:
...extracting goodness little by little....
Your imagery is always very cool.
PS--Ananael is a friend of both myself and Astrokreep23, which , by default, makes him cool.
He's applying for the SB group, and I just wanted to vouch for him.
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Your imagery is always very cool.
PS--Ananael is a friend of both myself and Astrokreep23, which , by default, makes him cool.
He's applying for the SB group, and I just wanted to vouch for him. [Edited on Jan 09, 2004 6:46AM]
ananael:
From your journal, it looks like your favorite Boingo song might be "Private Life" too... 
Hope things run smoother for you.
Hope things run smoother for you.
Who is slochill and where did you go????!!!!! 
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adam73:
Under my bed and I'm trying to coax it out with a bit of cheese.
itsalivemedia:
There is a show in Feb I might go to at the Ventura Theater. But I will be in SB in late jan. regardless. Let's talk about hanging. ok?
Yes, I was very naughty this year so Santa stopped by to drop off some coal but stayed to paddle my ass (I wish...).
You know, total compatibility is an elusive thing. Our parents generation didn't really have the issue of trying to find someone they had everything in common with. They simply tried to find in eachother a provider and a housekeeper. The issues...
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You know, total compatibility is an elusive thing. Our parents generation didn't really have the issue of trying to find someone they had everything in common with. They simply tried to find in eachother a provider and a housekeeper. The issues...
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itsalivemedia:
Did you see the Rev. Horton Heat tonight?
I kinda with I was with you. But you have another man. And he is absolutely, 100% more important. And it's awesome that you are with him.
Call me tho....
I kinda with I was with you. But you have another man. And he is absolutely, 100% more important. And it's awesome that you are with him.
Call me tho....
politrix:
...add to the confusion, a definitve lack of standardized courtship rituals.
I met a Senegalese drummer this year who wanted to marry my Ex after meeting her for about 4 hours. In his culture, people were introduced to each other from common families in the village or nearby villages, and after getting to know each other very briefly, they determined whether or not they were good people or not. If they were, then they figured they could make a good life togethr. If not, then they didn't and they just go on as usual.
I met a Senegalese drummer this year who wanted to marry my Ex after meeting her for about 4 hours. In his culture, people were introduced to each other from common families in the village or nearby villages, and after getting to know each other very briefly, they determined whether or not they were good people or not. If they were, then they figured they could make a good life togethr. If not, then they didn't and they just go on as usual.
I want to run away again
the itch is nearly unbearable
if I cannot have what I covet
then I might as well go
I know that should this scene end
I will travel to the limits of earth
to erase these memories I have
and I'll start over
again
with only a couple of
my alligator bags
and I'll find another you.
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supernovice:
Fear not, my friend - just drunken Emo scribblings... In no way reflects the real me. Well, maybe a little, I did want to puke at the time (too much Shiraz).
P.S.
Santa stopped by, said you were very naughty this year and got a lump of coal in your stocking.... Tisk, tisk...
P.S.
Santa stopped by, said you were very naughty this year and got a lump of coal in your stocking.... Tisk, tisk...
disblackfeet:
Twisted? Interesting..........
I can't keep on
thinking it's going to change
it's as though you take what
you want
and leave me with nothing
I can't ask
and
I can't speak
I can lie there and give it
and simply be happy that
you are on top of me
but really it's not enough
and we both know it
the peril lies
in the way you look...
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thinking it's going to change
it's as though you take what
you want
and leave me with nothing
I can't ask
and
I can't speak
I can lie there and give it
and simply be happy that
you are on top of me
but really it's not enough
and we both know it
the peril lies
in the way you look...
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itsalivemedia:
Any interest in seeing Gwendolyn on Sunday:
http://www.laweekly.com/calendar/picks/scoring.php#sunday
Or going to either a hockey game or seeing The 88, Brian Jonestown massacre and Love featuring Arthur Lee with me on the 27th?
Just throwing it out there.
http://www.laweekly.com/calendar/picks/scoring.php#sunday
Or going to either a hockey game or seeing The 88, Brian Jonestown massacre and Love featuring Arthur Lee with me on the 27th?
Just throwing it out there.
whip:
I was talking with some friends about some lovely wormwood recipies. I hear you're a connoisseur. Care to share thought? Email preferred, I don't want to post that sort of thing.
I am so fucking lucky
that I'm driving drunk in my own head
hoping to kill the stalker that lives
there too
wanting to cut myself loose
of this murky dull web
waiting to go on to a less-evolved place
and I don't know if you can see
that you are all wrong for me
but as long as you hang around
I am too...
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that I'm driving drunk in my own head
hoping to kill the stalker that lives
there too
wanting to cut myself loose
of this murky dull web
waiting to go on to a less-evolved place
and I don't know if you can see
that you are all wrong for me
but as long as you hang around
I am too...
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blaine:
wow you're cute.
and hey I have the same bra/panty set...the red&black from Vics.
very hot.
xoxo
and hey I have the same bra/panty set...the red&black from Vics.
very hot.
xoxo
fu:
Nice sad words. You have no peace?
I don't want to do this anymore! I get my hopes up, I really like someone and then it all breaks apart like a goddamn cookie. The anguish and yearning is bad enough to send me to a fucking cloister! Honestly, at least then I wouldn't have the temptation. Actually, that wouldn't work, I like women too.
Do women like me ever find someone who...
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supernovice:
"The rule of thumb is that if I don't frighten you away for whatever reason in the first two weeks, you're stuck with me until I decide that you haven't given me what I asked for."
Frightening indeed.....
Frightening indeed.....
johngalt:
It is not possible to not want anymore. Camille Paglia describes a certain kind of obsessive compulsive mind frame that characterizes all great artists. You've got that mind frame. I can see it in your art. I can see it in your writing. It unfortunately often extends to your life. That is your plight. You are one of the lucky ones.
This art
it sucks me in
I shudder
like it's an orgasm
and it doesn't get easier
but it gets so much
more interesting
I could get crazy
I could get psycho
and maybe I will
I need to release
and no one will come to my aid
they say they really will
and I know they want to
but avoiding me and causing
anguish...
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it sucks me in
I shudder
like it's an orgasm
and it doesn't get easier
but it gets so much
more interesting
I could get crazy
I could get psycho
and maybe I will
I need to release
and no one will come to my aid
they say they really will
and I know they want to
but avoiding me and causing
anguish...
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supernovice:
Yo no creo que esta's rota, pero posiblemente, daado severamente.
abrazos y besos
abrazos y besos
Oh shit, the walls come crumbling down (again)!
Welcome to my madness
I've had no visitors for such awhile
won't you stay
and keep me company
whle I deliberate and toil?
I've sent out invitations
they were muddied by doubt,
I'm sure
and my discontent has grown
into loneliness of profound proportions
Meeting him has stirred my dementia
lit my concupiscent fires
I'm moldable, malleable...
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Welcome to my madness
I've had no visitors for such awhile
won't you stay
and keep me company
whle I deliberate and toil?
I've sent out invitations
they were muddied by doubt,
I'm sure
and my discontent has grown
into loneliness of profound proportions
Meeting him has stirred my dementia
lit my concupiscent fires
I'm moldable, malleable...
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maelwys:
You have a wonderful way of expressing yourself I'd like to be more poetic
I'd like to be more poetic
neobeat:
nice
Jesus Christ! Okay! I am preoccupied fantasizing, teaching, masturbating and numerous other things...
I wish I didn't keep talking about the same things over and over. I'm tired of having phone sex, I'm running low on batteries and I have to get my jollies in absurd ways. I went to a party dressed as a CHP officer, cuffed a man who turned out to be...
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I wish I didn't keep talking about the same things over and over. I'm tired of having phone sex, I'm running low on batteries and I have to get my jollies in absurd ways. I went to a party dressed as a CHP officer, cuffed a man who turned out to be...
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itsalivemedia:
I see.
Where are you you gorgeous bitch?
Call me for phone sex.....that's all I am getting too. Fucking New Mexico!
Where are you you gorgeous bitch?
Call me for phone sex.....that's all I am getting too. Fucking New Mexico!
supernovice:
Keep entertaining - you've plenty of time left to be old and boring.
Halloween. Hmm, yeah. Yet again, alone. Went to my bro's party that I swore I wouldn't go to. THe porch caved in with 4 people on it, lucky no one was seriously hurt...
How is it that I am always alone? It really seems that this never bothered me before, but I feel the lonely so bitterly. The painting definitely helps. The one I am...
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How is it that I am always alone? It really seems that this never bothered me before, but I feel the lonely so bitterly. The painting definitely helps. The one I am...
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trocc:
only 4 people caved in a porch? damn, i'd be staying away from that joint too...
try not to feel too lonely, sweetheart...
try not to feel too lonely, sweetheart...
supernovice:
somebody needs to clean the cobwebs out of this motherfucker.... Dayum!
Where'd you go?
Where'd you go?
How were the Jalapeno poppers and egg roll? So random!
That's why I love Jack in the Box (but only once a year) not only do they combine "regional" foods like chinese (egg roll), American (burgers), Mexican (tacos) but they pretty much invent their own food. When I saw the "new Fajita sandwich" on a TV commercial, I just laughed. Can't wait to see the new "Pad Thai Jack with frings" special sometime soon.
Remember frings? LOVED that concept. They need to bring it back.
Ok enough randomness....talk to you soon hopefully. good luck with everything.