tarbaby

thoughts going through my head:

1. i'm going to miss him as my friend.
i've known him a long time now and i guess it was a big mistake. but the fact that he WAS my friend meant that i could trust him, right?

2. i could physically hurt him at this point.
the thing that sucks is that i'm going to a party were he is going to be later this month. sure, by then i will be over it, but as soon as i see his fucking face i'm going to want to sock him in the jaw.

3. i love you guys.
everyone who has left me hugs here and in the girl group and everyone who has emailed me-you have made me feel so good. thank you.

4. why did he lie?
his big thing right now is "i'm not like that!" when obviously he is. just deal with it and admit you hurt people just like they have hurt you. because you did.

5. as jazmin said-"he messed with the wrong girl".
'nuff said.

i want to cry but i keep holding it in. i pride myself on being tough as nails and when this kind of thing happens it makes me have to confront the fact that i do have feelings. ugh.
so my heart hardens and i again put up my guard. thanks, guy.
although i live by the old saying "what goes around comes around". karma is a bitch, babe.

i'm so tired-i'll get back to everyone tomorrow with hugs and kisses.

"all in all it's just another brick in the wall"