I'm a little concerned that in my last entry i made it sound like I really did take advantage of someone who was less than completely coherent.
No. Not exactly. I never have. That's too skeezy to be any fun. We did play a little kissy face, and even that was because she threatened to scream and wake up my roommates if I didn't kiss her.
That's a girl who's somebody else entirely when she gets drunk. It's the closest literal Jekyll/Hyde transformation I've ever seen. I feel bad for her. We've all got our monsters, but most of us have the extraordinary power to keep them down.
One might point out that not drinking could fix that right up, but she's in her fucking twenties and transplanted here to the midwest. Not much else going on.
In House Of Sand in Fog Ben Kingsley's character says that a wounded bird that flies into your lap is an angel. I'm going to try and help her out.
But it gets better because I've got the Jekyll/Hyde girl in one corner and in the other there's another girl with similar problem, only, she turns into a superfreak for attention. She's one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen, but theres' something about the way she uses her attractiveness as bait for her perpetual need for attention (ie: She likes to get drunk and put on strip shows for anyone who will watch) that I find unattractive and am repelled from.
For her, I would border between giving into the frenzy she always tries to work me into and being a perfect gentlemen. Ultimately I refused to even lay a finger on her because playing with a girl with a boy is bad BAD karma- and I don't need that kind of shit when I'm in a relationship.
I just got a phonecall from her. She broke up with her boyfriend after the last time I chided her and now she wants to go out on a date(ish type thing?) very soon. She wants me to come over now.
I want to be a good guy this year, and so far so good. But why does that have to be tested every time I assert it?
I think I'm going to maybe stop drinking myself and try and get them to stop with me? Wouldn't be such a bad idea...would it?
Any suggestions?
No. Not exactly. I never have. That's too skeezy to be any fun. We did play a little kissy face, and even that was because she threatened to scream and wake up my roommates if I didn't kiss her.
That's a girl who's somebody else entirely when she gets drunk. It's the closest literal Jekyll/Hyde transformation I've ever seen. I feel bad for her. We've all got our monsters, but most of us have the extraordinary power to keep them down.
One might point out that not drinking could fix that right up, but she's in her fucking twenties and transplanted here to the midwest. Not much else going on.
In House Of Sand in Fog Ben Kingsley's character says that a wounded bird that flies into your lap is an angel. I'm going to try and help her out.
But it gets better because I've got the Jekyll/Hyde girl in one corner and in the other there's another girl with similar problem, only, she turns into a superfreak for attention. She's one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen, but theres' something about the way she uses her attractiveness as bait for her perpetual need for attention (ie: She likes to get drunk and put on strip shows for anyone who will watch) that I find unattractive and am repelled from.
For her, I would border between giving into the frenzy she always tries to work me into and being a perfect gentlemen. Ultimately I refused to even lay a finger on her because playing with a girl with a boy is bad BAD karma- and I don't need that kind of shit when I'm in a relationship.
I just got a phonecall from her. She broke up with her boyfriend after the last time I chided her and now she wants to go out on a date(ish type thing?) very soon. She wants me to come over now.
I want to be a good guy this year, and so far so good. But why does that have to be tested every time I assert it?
I think I'm going to maybe stop drinking myself and try and get them to stop with me? Wouldn't be such a bad idea...would it?
Any suggestions?
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god knows there is enough in ourselves that need saving and non of us are qualified to take on more humans.
take care of yourself first mr atom. the rest will fall into place.