oh, poor whitey (a brief and funky excersise)
beat down
beat up
beat off
michael jackson's "beat it"
taking Dayquil in the nightime
to kill the cough but keep the insomniac alive
as the rest of the danger dies
in the conformity line
standing by a freeway offramp stoplight
holding a cardboard sign that says
will work for Masters Degree
if the next SUV that...
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beat down
beat up
beat off
michael jackson's "beat it"
taking Dayquil in the nightime
to kill the cough but keep the insomniac alive
as the rest of the danger dies
in the conformity line
standing by a freeway offramp stoplight
holding a cardboard sign that says
will work for Masters Degree
if the next SUV that...
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Snorting Pixie Sticks
Back when we were kids we used to snort Pixie Sticks
In our teens, me and my friend Maurice would sit and smoke on Bidis
Now hes got three kids
And I got a pack of Cloves and a studio apartment
I dont know why, but we both made our choices
I hear the voice of Biggie turn into Chuck D into...
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Back when we were kids we used to snort Pixie Sticks
In our teens, me and my friend Maurice would sit and smoke on Bidis
Now hes got three kids
And I got a pack of Cloves and a studio apartment
I dont know why, but we both made our choices
I hear the voice of Biggie turn into Chuck D into...
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zak:
thank you so much 
that means a lot to me
that means a lot to me
automatic:
Yeah...
It's high time you updated
It's high time you updated
so here it is, kids
the reason we exist and evolved from fish
the mission-accomplished-goals-set set
is treading water buying houses having daughters
feelings fodder for memory slaughter
go get the teeter-todder
because its uneven to be bleeding stuff inside
but on the outside free of bruises and cuts
its like going nuts quietly with a sly, gentle smile
without a 401K plan
nothing but...
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kulmagrrl:
Hullo... 
viva:
hey man thanks for the nice words about my crap!
If yah ever make it to vegas let me know!
If yah ever make it to vegas let me know!
(two random pieces : eat them up or ignore the shit out of 'em)
I used to feel really connected to people and humanity back in the day when I used to take hits of e from time to time but now I dont feel shit
I try to say hi to strangers but it yields poor results
So when Im at home I dont...
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I used to feel really connected to people and humanity back in the day when I used to take hits of e from time to time but now I dont feel shit
I try to say hi to strangers but it yields poor results
So when Im at home I dont...
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candycox:
I absolutely love both.
The first one's touching, and I gulped in every word. Weed is, and will always be, a best friend of mine... haha.
The second one made me smile. I've always hated the name Chip too.
Take care,
Kit
The first one's touching, and I gulped in every word. Weed is, and will always be, a best friend of mine... haha.
The second one made me smile. I've always hated the name Chip too.
Take care,
Kit
automatic:
Have you ever heard the untitled pedestrian track on the old Anticon comp album? If not u need to.
just some good old BULLSHIT
writing riding hiding fighting
the light inside somewhere is guiding
the dying part
it's eyes are closed
so the exposed no clothes dream
is seen between every other interaction
inside my mind
compose with slow chest contraction meditative air blows
or pure sedative and seductive word flows
until i know i need to see a she of warm touch
this...
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writing riding hiding fighting
the light inside somewhere is guiding
the dying part
it's eyes are closed
so the exposed no clothes dream
is seen between every other interaction
inside my mind
compose with slow chest contraction meditative air blows
or pure sedative and seductive word flows
until i know i need to see a she of warm touch
this...
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fred:
Hey man.... that's last year's bullshit.
you gotta bring out a load for the new year.
Happy New Year!
you gotta bring out a load for the new year.
Happy New Year!
things could be better. but i guess they could also be worse.
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automatic:
Merry X-Mass!
You moping FOO!
You moping FOO!
kulmagrrl:
shittyshittyshitty and blah: me TOO!!
Yes things could be worse, but it's hard--for me at least-- to see that sometimes.
Hope you holidays were better--or at least no worse than--mine, mentally and emotionally.
Yes things could be worse, but it's hard--for me at least-- to see that sometimes.
Hope you holidays were better--or at least no worse than--mine, mentally and emotionally.
shitty. shitty. shitty. shitty. shitty. shiity. blah.
waiting for fate (i got a real great attitude) aka playing myself in an imaginary game of cards and losing
im waiting for the
man
three dollar and fifty cent coffee in my
hand
somethings gonna happen
inspiration before perspiration
underarms laced with thick coats of Right Guard gel deodorant
sitting on this metal bar chair outside on a sidewalk
waiting for the sun to...
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im waiting for the
man
three dollar and fifty cent coffee in my
hand
somethings gonna happen
inspiration before perspiration
underarms laced with thick coats of Right Guard gel deodorant
sitting on this metal bar chair outside on a sidewalk
waiting for the sun to...
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candycox:
How are you doing?
I've been feeling shitty lately because I've sunk to a new low: I've become an escort. To be perfectly blunt, I suck dick for $$.
I had a $10/hr job at Rite Aid that just wasn't cutting it... my rent is too damn expensive and I'm knee-deep in debt. I've gotten desperate basically.
I love the $$ I've made (I've made $2000 in 3 days), but I hate myself for doing this. It's sickening. I hate strange men touching me. I cry afterwards. It really really sucks. No pun intended, hah.
My self-esteem has gone down the drain. My life is hell right now. I feel so dirty and gross and I hate myself.
So yeah, that's basically what's been going on with me.
I've been feeling shitty lately because I've sunk to a new low: I've become an escort. To be perfectly blunt, I suck dick for $$.
I had a $10/hr job at Rite Aid that just wasn't cutting it... my rent is too damn expensive and I'm knee-deep in debt. I've gotten desperate basically.
I love the $$ I've made (I've made $2000 in 3 days), but I hate myself for doing this. It's sickening. I hate strange men touching me. I cry afterwards. It really really sucks. No pun intended, hah.
My self-esteem has gone down the drain. My life is hell right now. I feel so dirty and gross and I hate myself.
So yeah, that's basically what's been going on with me.
zak:
this is excellent. as always.
i don't like page long poetry in general. but your stuff is unusually captivating. as i've said before.. the honesty is there.
i don't like page long poetry in general. but your stuff is unusually captivating. as i've said before.. the honesty is there.
the streets around me/the streets surround me
walking around my Hollywood neighborhood streets
free newspapers that no one will ever read become the trash
that fits snugly against the curb and the black asphalt
an old couch of outdated design worn down to its wooden frame
remains a stain on the sidewalk since I have moved in
there are three teenage boys speaking Armenian, gesturing...
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fred:
It's more like I'm putting a very conscious effort to be social. So I'm just feeling very self-conscious and pre-meditated and somwhat calculated. Like a personal project or something.
Before I just did the most immediate natural thing, which was to just be reclusive , or just occasionally deal with the handful of people I'm already comfortable with.
I'm lacking the natural spontaniety of being with people I like, trust and feel comfortable around. But then again it's more spontaneous in some ways because I'm doing things which are not comfortable and then treating my experiences like an experiment or exercise. The goal being breaking out of self-imposed limitations.
Before I just did the most immediate natural thing, which was to just be reclusive , or just occasionally deal with the handful of people I'm already comfortable with.
I'm lacking the natural spontaniety of being with people I like, trust and feel comfortable around. But then again it's more spontaneous in some ways because I'm doing things which are not comfortable and then treating my experiences like an experiment or exercise. The goal being breaking out of self-imposed limitations.
kaseypoteet:
absolutely beautiful!!
PS- *smack!*
PS- *smack!*
on my brains time machine, life, love and the warm glove,
and death by the knife and other means
life is so fragile
the mind is designed for time travel
I used to fear how easy it would be for someone to just slit my throat
with a knife
now I wish for the future gift
of dying in bed with my wife in the...
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candycox:
I love this one you wrote. Wonderful.
How you been doing? Anything crazy for Halloween? I'm dressing up as a Dominatrix Devil. hah. Use your imagination with that one. I'll probably post pictures of my costume later.
I have a date tonight with someone I'm not too excited to see... but he sent me flowers and chocolates at work, and that was too damn sweet for me to say no. I'm just not sure we click (we've hung out once before). I actually like someone else, but he only sees me as a fuck buddy (this is a guy I work with at Rite Aid - yes, I fucking work at Rite Aid now). I'm depressed about it. So depressed that I started cutting again.
Anyways, I hope you're doing a lot better than me right now.
xoxo
How you been doing? Anything crazy for Halloween? I'm dressing up as a Dominatrix Devil. hah. Use your imagination with that one. I'll probably post pictures of my costume later.
I have a date tonight with someone I'm not too excited to see... but he sent me flowers and chocolates at work, and that was too damn sweet for me to say no. I'm just not sure we click (we've hung out once before). I actually like someone else, but he only sees me as a fuck buddy (this is a guy I work with at Rite Aid - yes, I fucking work at Rite Aid now). I'm depressed about it. So depressed that I started cutting again.
Anyways, I hope you're doing a lot better than me right now.
xoxo
kulmagrrl:
Thanks for calling me on my errors in thinking. In my refusal to go back to therapy right now, I need someone like you keeping me in check. Now: can you move here and follow me around 24/7? And do you accept my insurance?
I love you internal rhymes, BTW. I can hear it being spoken without even trying.
I love you internal rhymes, BTW. I can hear it being spoken without even trying.
the growing glow worm
growing glow-worm dancing inside the frame of my brain-box
sometimes it hides but also it wiggles through my grey matter like its mud
and makes me think funny
I cant see it but I know its there
I can feel its glow in my cheekbones like the hum of florescent lighting
reverberating throughout your face
and its definitely a worm
its...
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growing glow-worm dancing inside the frame of my brain-box
sometimes it hides but also it wiggles through my grey matter like its mud
and makes me think funny
I cant see it but I know its there
I can feel its glow in my cheekbones like the hum of florescent lighting
reverberating throughout your face
and its definitely a worm
its...
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kulmagrrl:
OMG! I missed your birthday. Sorry.
HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY!!!
HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY!!!
automatic:
Hey, I finally have net back! Fuck Yeah! Happy B- Day- as well...
haven't been updating
just waiting
for something to happen
my life
is two big hands that can't stand
to clap in rythym
one thing ends and feeling grows after
i'm at that point
leaving the joint until
i get stabbed by the point
pencil pennicilin pcyllisobin sobbin mind ryhme
it's all a silly soggy bread down wind dead time
fill me up at bed time...
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just waiting
for something to happen
my life
is two big hands that can't stand
to clap in rythym
one thing ends and feeling grows after
i'm at that point
leaving the joint until
i get stabbed by the point
pencil pennicilin pcyllisobin sobbin mind ryhme
it's all a silly soggy bread down wind dead time
fill me up at bed time...
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kulmagrrl:
Hey, hi. Is it too late to give a shit or two? My sickness and tiredness has me holed up alone like a hermit. So I'm more lonely than ever, but, of course, I hate people, so it's okay. 
It's tough being a misanthrop with a dependent personality...
It's tough being a misanthrop with a dependent personality...