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I can't believe it's nearly 10 years since I first signed up for this site!

Thought I'd come back and check it out once again.

adelina:
Do you still check in every now and again?
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Keep eyes off
the small mind manifesto
Letting go
brings so much

Twine wrapped around ankles
scratches
Breaking you down slow
Breathing fast and falling

Empty constructs are denying
Now

Obliterate the reeds
and prison fibers
Penance from hard hanging swampland

Every day is planting seeds
Every moment is floating up
Dropping false objects
through pure light

Faces are showing
connection
Lost deep
in the...
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rourke:
OH carne asada makes me soooooo hot too.
lensturtle420:
going Vegan? I tried that, I suck at it though as i have such a restricted diet anyway (because of my health issues).
Hope you enjoy your detoxification... wink
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Okay, I just needed to get out more.
I'm still feeling like dogshit most of the time, but the severe heavy grief is gone.

It was timed right to the weather. All of this emotional turmoil right at the time of this cold windy rainy weather.
Now it's bright and clear and warmer.

I had one of the most amazing days of my...
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When my dad was in the hospital for lymphoma they gave him something called prednisone.
It would make super emotional. He'd choke up and cry about nearly anything, or bust out cracking up.

I feel like I've been on that the last couple of weeks.
I can't believe how many people I've cried in front of the last week.
Even people...
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ilsa:
Hey welcome back!!! Sorry it took me a bit to reply... I'm sorry you've been feeling this way lately, I hope things get better for you soon.
tretiak:
40 was less a transition than moving back to North Carolina.
Things are good but crazed. Hope you are getting through - sounds like you are via an unexpected route but we don't all pick our journeys - our job is to learn from them.
Cheers -
JW
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Ugh...

I'm in an awfully bum-kicked state of mind.

That last post over 3 months ago was the beginning of the end of a relationship I was in for about a year.
It was a real whirlwind. In fact it was just too much too fast.

I'm in a different phase now that time has gone and the initial relief is gone.
It...
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serpentworship:
Hey there man.. been awhile! Sorry to read about the end of the relationship, but perhaps this'll be the start of a new era for you.

No new girlfriend just yet, but I do have a new girl friend with whom I've been doing quite a bit of hanging out.

Indeed, Portland is great. I was there for a week in late September of this year and I wish I could have stayed so much longer.

Things going ok outside of the relation termination?
lensturtle420:
Ha, that's mental. My last Girlfriend was Annie, but the one before that was Jenny. They both left me because they couldn't cope with my health issues, even though I never needed looking after. Oh well...there must be better to come. I have faith in the Universe (hence being an Ordained Minister!).
As for Temple 420, well I am very good friends with Craig X and I claim it as my Ministry. I'm looking into starting a UK version, but I have to look into the law first. I spoke to him last week after his most recent trial and that was thrown out as the cahrges were total bullshit, but Craig is still facing Jail in January for the Temple, and to be honest my health would not cope with jail so i have to be very careful. Having said that, we are all confident he will be free as they have no real case against him at this point, it all comes down to the Beverly Hills Green Cross which is entirely legal. They are just picking on him because of his profile.

Good to know you Fred. Sorry things have not worked out with your last relationship, but you appear to have a good perspective on it. I'm just convincing myself that I deserve better (which I do - someone who will love me despite my health issues is definately something better!).
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A HA

It's been exactly a year.

Wow, a lot of things to try and get out that are in my head.
I didn't plan on this being the 1 year anniversary of my last post.. but it is.
I'm having a cosmic moment.

it involves:


  • marijuana

  • 2012 and ongoing consciousness shift

  • freedom

  • disintegration

  • The birth, life, ending of a relationship perfectly...
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scheisskopf:
Time flies.

Yes, I'm still here... numerous changes on my end:

New woman

Reproduction

etc.


I hope all is well.
adelina:
what does one mean by "synchronistic indicators" anyway?
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One step closer to death

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scheisskopf:
In cadence with the rest of us, my friend.


Hang in there.
zenhell:
Hi Obadiah. I think you had one of those cursed icons-an angel with a death's face-on your profile. Did you get kicked off the site, and now you're back on? I was disheartened by the thought that you may have been kicked off: it seemed immoral, that they would do that to you. You don't seem like the kind of person that would get into trouble here.
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Yo yo yo

FRED is back in town!



Got plenty to update on but that'll take a while.

mollymolly:
shocked

Welcome back!
strangekitty:
heehee. yeah i like 'em mean i guess. he just really cracks me up sometimes with some of the things he says.

i really need to start watching top chef as well!

smile
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SPOILERS! (Click to view)


I've decided I'll be out of here in a month.
My year end subscription already ran out about a week ago, but I extended a month because I realized I had almost 5 years of journal entries I'd like to save!
Dang it's hard to believe it's been that long.

Well anyway I see a...
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mollymolly:

Happy New Year! smile
chocolatejesus:
Well, it sucks that you're leaving just as I'm coming back. Take care, man.
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I've decided I'll be out of here in a month.
My year end subscription already ran out about a week ago, but I extended a month because I realized I had almost 5 years of journal entries I'd like to save!
Dang it's hard to believe it's been that long.

Well anyway I see a few other people bailing out...
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dr_lizardo:
Well, good luck with whatever you get up to.
10eisha:
yeah, i don't know why i have lost touch with SG. It happened suddenly....I dont blame you...But it was nice having you!!
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Well it's morning I had another weird dream so I'll try and recount it.
I woke up just after 6am and then went over what it was to try and remember it.
I would have liked to have gone back to sleep but can't.

So one scene was kind of like a mission control room like how they would have in the...
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meta:
it's a multigenerational love story set partly in Antarctica, partly in Minnesota.
samling:
well, when i talk about "not normal" when referencing my mom, i mean she's emotionally abusive. and she said a LOT of things she could've restrained herself from saying.
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This morning was pretty good.
I woke up feeling pretty well rested.
I got to see my chiropractor, which helped me with my neck.
At work I'm finally back what I'd like to be doing, so things are going well on that front.

Tonight I just saw a biography on Bukowski, Born Into This.
I really got into it.
I drank a bottle...
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chloe:
p.s. Not sure about the video. We're in a creative rut. But ideas are brewing.
zenfish:
I need to read more bukowski... read post office... loved it... and I have his last book (snagged it quick at a book store)... still left to read.

Do you know if that bio of him is on dvd?

as for role models... lately I'm all about the artists who can draw amazingly well.

James Jean, and Tara McPherson espcially.