sycojerry

Well it's 10:30 p.m and I'm wide awake. I torn some ligaments loose in my shoulder and possibly ruptured a disc in my neck.So I have been doped up and sleeping for the last 16 hours. Now that it's time to go to sleep, I'm not even tired. I'm going to be a zombie at work tomorrow if don't at least sleep a little tonight.

Do you ever feel like you are alone in the world sometimes?
Every once in awhile I feel that way. I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself. I think ............... life has thrown me a few too many curveballs lately. I try to be positive , I really do. But the world just seems so dark and bleak. Things that once made me happy, now make me sad and depressed. All music now has a sad,dark undertone to it. Why can't I find my joy? Did I take a wrong turn in my past and forever change my life.I used to be such a happy person. Nothing used to get at me.Now everything in my life is sad and depressing. I thought that I was finally coming out of my funk.But I guess not. Life is unfair and there is nothing you can do but go with it.There's no use fighting it, because it only makes it worse(so I've learned). That's OK . But I keep trying even when I know it won't do any good.

Well since I don't have any friends I guess this journal will have to do. At least it quietly listens to my ramblings.