so yet again, i find myself changing my mind on a million things.
i originally told myself i'm going to be a strong, independent woman and NOT whine and complain about being single for valentine's day. and, sure, i won't be complaining really, but i am pretty fucking sure i want a goddamn valentine. no, even better, i want to be in a goddmamn relationship again. i dumped adam in the beginning of july. 7 months single. the longest i've been single in a good 5 years. i have longterm, serious relationships and i even did the whole serial dating bullshit that most chicks do as if it were the norm. (is it?)
i'm sick of dating one guy after another. i tried that and just ended up with a broken heart every few months. i want a serious relationship. and the guy i want it with is too good for me, probably doesn't like me like that, probably doesn't even want a relationship, and.... this is goign to be ridiculous, but we never hang out unless we are drinking, and as an alcoholic, i'm not so sure it's a good idea to be in a relationship with a heavy drinker.
WOW i typed a lot... so much for not complaining....
erm.... so as of tomorrow once we get all the snow, this will officially be the snowiest winter ever in wisconsin! and to think i survived it all without a boyfriend to come keep me warm and fuzzy on cold nights! (yea i got another kitten for that )
last but not least, i'm learning to speak klingon. i was named after a star trek actress, so i figured i'd reconnect with my inner trekkie. and maybe find me a sexy trekkie to date! (is there such a thing as a sexy trekkie...?)
how i see myself every day: a chopped up mess
i originally told myself i'm going to be a strong, independent woman and NOT whine and complain about being single for valentine's day. and, sure, i won't be complaining really, but i am pretty fucking sure i want a goddamn valentine. no, even better, i want to be in a goddmamn relationship again. i dumped adam in the beginning of july. 7 months single. the longest i've been single in a good 5 years. i have longterm, serious relationships and i even did the whole serial dating bullshit that most chicks do as if it were the norm. (is it?)
i'm sick of dating one guy after another. i tried that and just ended up with a broken heart every few months. i want a serious relationship. and the guy i want it with is too good for me, probably doesn't like me like that, probably doesn't even want a relationship, and.... this is goign to be ridiculous, but we never hang out unless we are drinking, and as an alcoholic, i'm not so sure it's a good idea to be in a relationship with a heavy drinker.
WOW i typed a lot... so much for not complaining....
erm.... so as of tomorrow once we get all the snow, this will officially be the snowiest winter ever in wisconsin! and to think i survived it all without a boyfriend to come keep me warm and fuzzy on cold nights! (yea i got another kitten for that )
last but not least, i'm learning to speak klingon. i was named after a star trek actress, so i figured i'd reconnect with my inner trekkie. and maybe find me a sexy trekkie to date! (is there such a thing as a sexy trekkie...?)
how i see myself every day: a chopped up mess
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puff:
mean arse cam woman ... but hey if you're up to trekkie weird stuff i'm not sure i want to see :px
wyldewolfe:
your welcome