sweetiyvie

I'm sick guys, HELLA. I thought that I had spinal menengitis last night because of the intense pain in my neck and the migrane headache. Owie. I feel a bit better today, not as feverish but still stiff achey and exhausted. Good thing I didn't have to work today, hefting around 55lb buckets all morning didn't sound ideal.

So, instead...

I went to the dentist today...It's amazing what a year of doing cocaine can do to your teeth. The destist said that my teeth look very nice on the surface, but I have more cavaties that he could count without x-rays. JOY! Then he cleaned my teeth, which hurt like a motherfucker. I need to get x amount of cavaties filled, get my wisdom teeth removed, possibly get my jaw broken and wired shut, get braces and finish it all off with some good-ol whitening. Note to self---ignoring bills, health. and overall life maintenence (sp?) will not make the problem go away.


I am making major life changes...it is time to shed old ways and embrace new ones. Time to make the lifestyle match the ideal, afterall, its mine to mold as I wish. Too many years of I shoulda, I coulda... Now, I'm gonna.

Study and pass my G.E.D. (Oh yeah, I've been a fuckup for years, guys!!)
Enroll in the J.C. in the spring, possibly full-time.
Smog, register and get insurance for my car, then go to court and weasel my way out of 3 tickets for said offenses.
Start buying groceries and cooking for myself more often instead of living off sushi, pizza and beer. (Dream diet, I know but too pricey after a while)
Get back into my artwork. I've actually done 3 paintings this week, and will have pics up soon, if you care to see the artfag side of me..
Clean up this dump of an apartment and stop living like a junkie, cause I am no longer one.
Go to therapy or something. (If you know me, you know that this is necessary )

AND........*Drum roll please*

I AM QUITTING CIGARETTES FOREVER AND FOREVERS THIS SATURDAY !!

budumchee!!

I know this seems like a heavy plate for me, but don't worry, It's actually quite light considering the timing that these things must be executed. I have quit smoking before, and I know exactly how good it feels to be free of that addiction. (Thanks, Eli !!) Allthough the cravings never go away, I hear, I know that I can do it and be happy still.

I can't wait to see where my new life takes me! I know for a fact though, that anything is better than here. AMEN.


Edit:: I noticed that I am presenting myself as a dirty junkie with my teeth rotting out. This is far from the truth. I don't do drugs,(clean for over a year) I shower daily, and am a very sanitary person. Just wanted to clear that up!