sweetavenue

Shit, shit, shit. Have you ever known someone that the sex is really, really good with but you could never work the other stuff out? Should you deprive yourself of that great sex just because you two will never have the kind of "relationship" that you require in order to be serious? I've always said a big, fat NO to that question. Isn't it in High Fidelity that sex is declared a basic human right? (Can I write another sentence that ends in a question mark?)

So, yea, all this means that he called again tonight and we set up a tentative plan for tomorrow night. I really need to see him, it's been way too long due to circumstances beyond my control. I was thinking I wasn't going to ever see him again but I've made that declaration over and over again and it never holds. I can list a zillion reasons why but I suddenly forget them all when I hear his voice.

I don't know when/if things are going to happen with the New Boy in town. I've been avoiding seeing any other guys because I knew I would be very hurt if I found out he was seeing someone else. But no talk has happened yet, nothing beyond kissing has happened, so I think if the situation with Sex Boy arises tomorrow I will have to take advantage of it.

I do care very much about SB, we've known each other for 10 years and have been together on and off for 5 of those now. I know it will always be "off", that we'll never be together like we once were, but I still want to be with him sometimes.

I guess I had to write this out so later when I'm saying, "Shit, shit, shit" after I do the deed I can see how I once completely justified it and how much good sense it made!

Listening to: The Long Winters.
Reading: The Bell Jar (yet again, but it's for class this time.)
Watching: I just watched Pieces of April. I wanted it to be a lot better than it was (because I love Patricia Clarkson), but, hey, at least it was only 80 minutes long.