suicidesic

I am slowly beginning to remember why I don't trust anyone anymore.....

I tend to let my defenses down for a second, then I usually wind up getting fucked over...


The shoot with alidora went beautifully, her pictures are equally as great as she is...it will be with a heavy heart that I will bid her adieu, which will only be too soon it's really...
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I want to give up

Can't I ever be happy without the slightest bit of depression....I know about the sweet and sours of life but, come on...my head hurts

I'm shooting my first set today everybody wish me luck

Bob Log III kicks fucking ass....such a good show, well time to get my ass in the shower then to bed with me...I'll post some picks of the drawings I've done this past week

I think I'll fall down some staris today I don't know why....some times it is good to get your ass kicked, at least a little bit.

Hurrah for cool drawings of peoples' back muscles, which I'm becoming very good at. sometimes under the right lighting I look at someones spine and debate on whether I could reach in between the mid-back muscles and rip it...
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I get to do a photo set on Saturday...so sweet.

I need to eat, I need to sleep, I need to not be in school or this town for that matter

I got some great cd's made for me....I think that creativity is always an awesome gift to give. I had lunch with my mom today and that was pretty cool we discussed how things were going in our lives, like where we might be ending up in the coming year(s)....very stressful, Chicago, New York City, San Francisco, etc... my brother might be coming in from...
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I just watched Secretary, I hadn't watched it in a while....I had forgotten how good of a movie it was. I feel like going out somewhere.....if only I didn't have to work tonight

I'm going to the olive garden before work though....that should be good, I feel like drinking wine again....anyone care to join me?

AHH *Sigh....wine is great

wow....I think I'm starting to finally breakdown from all of this schoolwork. For those of you who didn't know I have been taking classes with full schedules for like a year straight...this summer is killing me and I'm only halfway through. I've been actually very happy as of late, all school stuff aside, I am going to do the incredibly beautiful Alidora's photo set here...
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I get to draw nekkid people starting tomorrow....I hope they aren't all terrible looking like the models in my last figure drawing class. I finally got paid today for my first week of work woohoo since I don't have to work until thursday maybe I can actually go out this week...

"We don't associate with the likes of normal people.......we're ARTISTS!!"

KILL ME!!! I'm so fucking tired I had one of the best nights ever the other night but tonight kicked my ass at work...they forgot my paycheck, seems to be a lot of that going around

I need rest badly, no more school please