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What a stupid weekend.

Oh, I got stuff done that I needed to get done, and finally started on the research necessary for this mentoring project that I need to do...

After work on Friday morning, I went to campus, and hacked together a collection of academic papers i could use for my future paper. I'd been putting off any work on that (despite having...
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_risforrad:
That's too bad about the reaction from the artists. I hang out with alot of theater actors, but I've had pretty good success talking about engineering at their parties - they all say it's refreshing to be around someone who talks about something other than theater. Also, I usually open with how I came to the only engineer in a group of friends who are actors and poke fun at myself a bit, so maybe that helps.

That's SO great that you were a goth.
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This one won't be whiny. Much. I promise.

I'm sitting here dreading what will occur in this city in a few hours. Super Bowl takes place later on this evening, and I'm afraid that when i wake up and leave the house this evening, there'll be drunken revellers out yelling "woo-hoo!" and driving around. Or out screaming that we were robbed. Whichever occurs, it'll be......
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_risforrad:
Actually I really liked your last post. I just didn't have time to read it before now. It made me want to shout out all sorts of predictable advice like "dump Heather!" "bag the waffle girl!" and "wow that girl you mentor sonds stupid!" (ok - that last one wasn't advice.) Unfortunately, super bowl and MP3 players aren't great conversation starters for me - but I hope Super Bowl Sunday wasn't as crazy a NHL playoffs get up here and I'm glad you're rediscovering some favorite tunes.
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Another post of disjointed ramblings. Sorry if you're the kind of person who takes the time to read these things, since I'm sure the few readable nuggets tend to be buried in pages of crap. One thing I've never promised is that I'd be entertaining.

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I wonder what it means when a finger mysteriously swells up and stiffens several times over the course of...
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A new semester has begun. The basics: I signed up for two math classes this semester-- 442, Mathematical Analysis II, and 333, Chaotic Dynamical Systems. There's a definite leap in diffuculty from 300-level to 400-level. What's interesting is that both are taught by the same teacher, same room, right in a row. The teacher gave me a funny look when I sat in after 442...
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_risforrad:
"Chaotic Dynamical Systems" would be a great name for a band.

You seem too nice to do this, but I wished you'd told those girls "no, you're both just ugly" when they called you gay.... it would've served them right for being attention whores... but that's kind of elementary school I guess (not that they were being mature either)
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About 90 credit hours down, 40 more to go.

4.0s in mathematical analysis I (3 credit hours), mentoring techniques III (1 credit hour), and history of western civilization II (3 credit hours). Interesting. I never thought I'd make it this far in school, let alone continue getting grades like this. For the first few semesters, it felt like some kind of fluke that I did...
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visara:
Hope the kitty gets better soon after her operation ....

Happy New Year!
_risforrad:
"just gazing into each others' eyes over waffles for a couple of hours" biggrin

Forget cliches - the "you create your own family thing" rules!

So are you for sure planning to pursue a doctorate?
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A hell of a week. I really hate this time of year any more; so much stuff coincides around the second week of December now-- multiple anniversaries I'd rather not remember, finals, work becomes its usual holiday hell.

Anyway. A year since Molly died. I miss her tremendously. This new cat is okay; we spent a good hour cuddled up last night on the couch,...
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_risforrad:
"only 3.8s" - must be nice!
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So, a few days after my last journal post, I sent a long, rambling, but much-thought-out letter to Heather F., setting out my position concerning "us." It'll be interesting to see what she has to say next time I get to talk to her; she tends to hate the more emotional, from-the-heart e-mails, but I'd been suffering a bit of l'esprit d'escalier since I'd last...
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merritt:
I know exactly what you're saying about younger girls thinking you're "23 or 24". Best feeling in the world. Also being a divorcee, I never did any dating in my twenties, but the girls that seem to be attracted to me are 21-24, and what do you know, I like them too.

But what brought me to your page was not semi-lecherous antics tongue but a comment you made about going through non-stop Jucifer and Pain Teens listening phases. I love both band, Pain Teens being one of my all-time faves. I also go through phases where I just can't get enough of them.
merritt:
Did you ever get to see the Pain Teens live? What's your favorite album? Alas, no, and Beast of Dreams and Stimulation Festival are neck-and-neck for me. Destroy Me Lover was great too. Hell, they're all fucking great.

As for Jucifer, unfortunately both times I've seen them live they sucked ass. Their buhzillion amps schtick is impressive at first, but you couldn't hear the vox or the drums (!) either time... 2 years apart, and in different clubs! I mean, Amber is nice to look at in a Bratz! doll sort of way, but I want to hear her voice!

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An open letter to a non-member.

Thanks for calling me this weekend. I haven't heard from you in a long time. A ridiculously long time.

Harlan asked me last night why I never dated Tara. I replied that there was too much drama (which there was), and he laughed and said "yeah, kinda poor white trash, isn't it?" Not really. It was funny coming after...
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phantasy:
ha ha, yep, so I understand the jadedness. wink
_risforrad:
Surely you'll swing the bachelor's before 40 - you still have 8 years (according to your profile)! Thanks for the Hallowe'en postsmile
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My first exams-- midterms, really-- for both classes are scheduled for this week. Of course, with my need to study this weekend, this was the one weekend in which I had to attend all-day mentoring conferences. I love how that works; why would a university schedule conferences for student mentors during a crunch week like this?

I got a little studying in on the math,...
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_risforrad:
Good luck on your midterms! How does the student mentoring thing work?

That's so cool that a kitten appeared on your doorstep! Was it already in your apartment building or did it come in from outside? Do you think someone might try to claim it?

I think my gerbils will be ok. They're from the same litter and they lived together for 1.5 years before the 'tail chomping' incident. I think they just got cranky. I had another pair of gerbils a few years ago that I had to separate permanently; they'd been chasing each other around for quite a few days and then one of them started relentlesly biting the other one all over the flank. I also had a pair once that got along great for 3 years until one of them got old and sick and I came home one day to find that the other had neatly disemboweled his 'friend' and left him belly-up in the centre of the cage cult-style.

I've heard that hamsters are tricky to keep in pairs/groups - I gather that you had the misfortune of witnessing trauma-inducing rodent violence on a regular basis as a child?
lily:
Hey, Dude. I just wanted to apologize for calling you an idiot in the CE forums. It just felt like it was me against the world for a second there and I became defensive and sick of clarifying things. It was immature to respond to you in that way and I truly am sorry.

P.s. Sylvia plath is one of my heroines!
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And the stupid, passive non-relationship/relationship continues with the g/f. Anyway, enough about that. On to the usual once-every-couple-of-months-random-things-in-my-life journal entry.

Midway through the fall semester, and I have no idea how I'm doing in my classes. Neither Math 441 or History 114 have quizzes, and neither has had their first exam yet. I could be doing really well; I could fail miserably. Who knows?

The...
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_risforrad:
Hey I saw your comment in the Introverts group and I thought I'd say hi. I like that you don't have a very extensive friends list - maybe that sounds wierd, but I usually don't like posting if people already have 3 pages of comments and a jillion people on their friends list.

I'm glad you like dancing - I haven't gone in such a long time but I used to love it. Good taste in movies too... although I've always skipped over 'Kiki's Delivery Service' on the rental shelf - what would you recommend about it?





_risforrad:
Sounds like 'Kiki' is a lot more subtle than most anime. Maybe I'll give it a try some time. I hate english dub-overs too - subtitles are always way better.

About your girlfriend's eterna-project - it's easier to think something is cool when you can appreciate the end product without having to do any of the work... and once you're bogged down in something it's easy to forget what drew you to it in the first place. So definately remind her that from an outsider's perspective modelling IS way cool and she's lucky to have a cool job.

I would love to get more into to hydrogeology and geochemistry - my academic background was mostly in water/waste water treatment so I've been edging my way into the contaminated sites stuff from a less technical angle and filling in the gaps in my education as I go along. Sometimes I contemplate going back to do a master's one day, but watching my boyfriend slave away on his eterna-thesis has been a bit of a deterrent, I'm afraid. Besides, at least one of us needs to be employed!
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So, I went out dancing tonight. A fun night out. A frustrating night out. Something to make me think about what, exactly, I'm doing with my life right now.

I won't go into the background story of my relationship with my girlfriend; it'd take too long, and it's too easy to misinterpret. Suffice it to say that I'm frustrated with the lack of movement, and...
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Ho ho, I've been drinking, time to make a post.

I don't do this too often; I usually post when I'm unhappy, so a lack of posts is probably good news.

Boredom and a lack of funds to do anything meaningful over the last few weeks meant that I started coming online a lot again, started reading the boards here on SG after a lapse...
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