I've lost the one thing in my life that makes me happy. I have lied and cheated someone I truly love and now I must, for maybe the first time in my 24 years, grow up and take responsibilities for my actions.
I am truly disgusted and ashamed of myself because I thought I was better than this. To learn I am a lesser person than I thought is a painfull lesson but nowhere near the pain I have caused someone who trusted me. I don't deserve her and the fact that she will still look at me, let alone talk to me shows she to be a better person than I many times over. The sort of person I wish I was.
I've always known I had my faults but I never considered myself 'bad' for lack of abetter term. I now have to re-evaluate all that I thought I knew about myself.
I realise this is a pretty bleak read but it needs to be said. No more fronting, no more hiding from responsibility.
I am truly disgusted and ashamed of myself because I thought I was better than this. To learn I am a lesser person than I thought is a painfull lesson but nowhere near the pain I have caused someone who trusted me. I don't deserve her and the fact that she will still look at me, let alone talk to me shows she to be a better person than I many times over. The sort of person I wish I was.
I've always known I had my faults but I never considered myself 'bad' for lack of abetter term. I now have to re-evaluate all that I thought I knew about myself.
I realise this is a pretty bleak read but it needs to be said. No more fronting, no more hiding from responsibility.
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rdpixie:
Oops double post.
sailorcandy:
you haven't lost me im here!