starvixen

I just can't escape it, can I?

I hadn't been to the site in a few days, so I just saw the article about Illeana Douglas and her new movie Dummy. The producer of the movie is A's ex, very recent ex at the time I started seeing her. She had told me about the movie, so of course hearing of it reminds me of her, and causes the heart pounding and chest tightening and feelings of regret. *sigh*

If I wasn't so damn shy and self concious I would have some new memories to insulate me from those. I hate how much it can still effect me sometimes.