Hey loves
Sorry if I havenāt been active lately or as responsive but Iāve kind of been in a funk all week and I thought I was getting out of it Wednesday but yesterday I got in a really bad fight (1of 1,000s)with my mom where she basically mentally abusive towards me. Iāve had depression in the past I had A very tumultuous upbringing and things havnt been very easy for me to handle lately. Iāve had plenty of people tell me to cut ties with her but that really hard when she lives four streets away and without going into great detail sheās very controlling and we have the same drs which I feel is unhealthy and her and my fiancĆ©e also do not get along. I notice my headaches and anxiety are not so bad when my mind is in a better place. Itād take forever to write how complex the relationship is and why I canāt just move far away right now but I just needed to vent and this is really my only outlet I have right now to vent. Thereās other things like money being really tight and feeling stuck and not being the creative being that in meant to be because of me being down. I also havenāt physically been feeling well with my headaches but I think itās all one circle chain reaction of events. Iāve been trying to remain positive in just feeling overwhelmed and like I have enough no one to go to or nowhere to go. Sorry for the depressing post guys I just needed to vent I hope youāre all doing well and sending good vibes your way
Xxxooo