Ive always felt the need to be in a relationship with someone, im not quite sure why but after being cheated on again and for the last time ive decided to stay single for some time, in my hopes that ill understand more about me and better myself.
Nonetheless all of this is rather challenging when im beyond used to the company of a female partner, and the love and affection I show/ receive, that's what I usually consider to be my crutch and reason for continuing down a road to nowhere. Now that I have no crutch, its just myself, school, and working out, oh and of course work.
Well, I feel so antisocial with just these things but making friends seems to be harder than I remember, and I guess the reason is that I allowed my self to be damaged by the previous examples of shit people who I thought who worth something.
Point is I wanna be happy again. I mean I am, with my own selfish accomplishments, like working out and school, but I want more, and ive always been fulfilled with a relationship as that something more, but maybe that's not right for me right now, I need an understanding of what I could do that is bigger than myself , fulfilling and allows me to slowly but surely shun my fear of the world and allow me to feel a lil less introverted and damaged;
Nonetheless all of this is rather challenging when im beyond used to the company of a female partner, and the love and affection I show/ receive, that's what I usually consider to be my crutch and reason for continuing down a road to nowhere. Now that I have no crutch, its just myself, school, and working out, oh and of course work.
Well, I feel so antisocial with just these things but making friends seems to be harder than I remember, and I guess the reason is that I allowed my self to be damaged by the previous examples of shit people who I thought who worth something.
Point is I wanna be happy again. I mean I am, with my own selfish accomplishments, like working out and school, but I want more, and ive always been fulfilled with a relationship as that something more, but maybe that's not right for me right now, I need an understanding of what I could do that is bigger than myself , fulfilling and allows me to slowly but surely shun my fear of the world and allow me to feel a lil less introverted and damaged;