In the past few days I have found that my work has been dead and nothing to me. I cannot do it. The passion is gone. I sit here wondering why I cannot be bothered to do anything except sit and write music all day long.
The time spent by myself, alone in my room comforts me in an eerie and speculative way. But I cannot seem to get my head round why the peace of recent had kept me happy because I know I hate being single and I have done for ages.
The music I'm have been writing though has been adventurous and fun to create but is very emotional for me. Hopefully I'll get it all recorded soon and I'll put a link on here when I have.
I hate the fact that there is no more passion for my uni and work. I need to change things, make myself happier. Hopefully this time away with my family this weekend will straighten things out.
The time spent by myself, alone in my room comforts me in an eerie and speculative way. But I cannot seem to get my head round why the peace of recent had kept me happy because I know I hate being single and I have done for ages.
The music I'm have been writing though has been adventurous and fun to create but is very emotional for me. Hopefully I'll get it all recorded soon and I'll put a link on here when I have.
I hate the fact that there is no more passion for my uni and work. I need to change things, make myself happier. Hopefully this time away with my family this weekend will straighten things out.
Hopefully, when I get back to london midweek, I'll feel a little bit more upbeat and ready to party if anyone is around.
I have been reading Divine Comedy
which has opened my eyes to lief after death and how it is viewed. I need to respect people more.
I need to change. I need to be better. Hopefully I can.
Much love
xxx