Hello everyone and Happy Halloween!!
I wanted to write a blog and say hello to you all but since my last blog I haven't been doing anything....really, so it would be a very short, boring blog. Found a question and answer thing online and thought it would be interesting to fill out. My life is pretty miserable right now but things always change. I did buy a new rat just recently, I named her Carrie :) Will post some pictures at the end of the question thing, also some cute pictures of my kitten Gary, also 2 new pictures that got sent to me from a shoot I did ages back. I know I need to get back on the boards soon and post a little more, it is just a little overwhelming sometimes. The end of the year is approaching and it scares me!
Btw I just recently made a tumblr account so if you want to follow me on there
http://solacehopeful.tumblr.com/
Anyway not much else to tell you right now.......I have a very boring life lol. Been struggling with a few issues of late, hope to battle them well!!
Hope you enjoy this question thing and my answers. Much love to you all and have a great Halloween! xoxoxox
1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
It is hard for me to look into someones eyes when they tell me how they feel about me. If they can look into my eyes they can see deeper.
2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
Tonight....tried to lay down in bed and images of my Dad came into my mind, couldn't shake them. I am angry because he wasn't a father he did things I don't want to talk about and yes I am still angry but not so angry that I am bursting with it.
3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?
This is a hard question. Honestly I wouldn't call anyone, if I were to die everything has already been said that needs to be said. I would offer my last call to another passenger.
4. You are at the doctor's office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?
I am not afraid of death, the afterlife is so much more appealing than this one, I just hope it isn't painful at the end. My remaining days I would spend riding horses, the only true freedom and writing journals. I would tell some people but I wouldn't want to upset them. I have actually thought about this question a lot in the past. I am kinda messed up! lol
5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.
Wow hard question..........ummm love because I have experienced it, trust in another story and I don't trust many people and the people I do trust it is never 100% but when I love it is with my whole heart and soul, there are no restrictions with love.
6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?
A life is more important than a job, I would be jumping in that canal and/or on the phone to the rescue services.
7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?
Both options are bad but I would rather be hurt by the one I love the most.....refer to question 5.
8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?
It all depends on the situation at the time, this has happened to me twice. This is too big a question to really answer.
9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?
Yes so I can say goodbye in person.
10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
No definitely not.
11. Does love = sex?
I was taught that is does from an early age and felt this way for a long, long time. I have now come to realize that it does not.
12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?
I would offer......other people are more important and that family and coworker would always be on my mind.
13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
I can never tell a person anything negative I am too afraid to hurt the person and too afraid that they would hurt me. This is a difficult question to answer. If I am in flight or fight mode and at the time it is fight (that is very rare) all kinds of things can be said. I will leave it at that.
14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?
Harder to tell them that I don't love them back but that has never happened to me so........
15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
My cigarettes. Sounds totally stupid but it is the only way I know how to cope with stress at the moment.
16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?
My Gran on the phone, overseas in England.
17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?
See question 2. I would change my actions because they were despicable
18.Imagine it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?
No one. I am used to fighting my own battles and I would take the bastard on myself........if it got bad though the police for sure haha
19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
Of course! Does this question really need a why? A human being is a human being, we all all equal.
21.You are holding onto your grandmother's hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?
Can't I jump instead? IF IT HAD TO BE DONE.....My Grandmother as she has lived a very long and full-filling life but the guilt of it would kill me in the end anyway.
22. Are you old fashioned?
I wouldn't think so?
23. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
I never expect anything in return. It is our duty as humans to help and be kind to everyone and not expect it in return, treat people as you wish to be treated. If we want a better world a better society we all need to be kind and help others and that should never come at a price.
24.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
True love with a broken heart.........time is a great healer, yes it might take a decade but the happy feelings will always stay a part of you.
25.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
To be free.
Okay I bet you all thing I am a crazy nut job now but oh well haha
Now some cute pictures of my kitten Gary.
Gary got into the Rat ball lol
Carrie