*(ATTENTION)* I did not add all the little codes in this entry. In fact I did nothing different. I post here at least every other day. Not sure what happened but it is pretty fucking annoying.
Day 2
I suppose I should have posted Day 1. But, I was too agitated to even think about it.
This Day 2 of my smoking cessation crusade. I really really really REALLY want one. It took every ounce of will power this morning to not go to the store and buy a pack. Ugh. This sucks...
Instead I went to my old Kickboxing class and punched the fuck out of a bag. That was fun.
Now I am on my way to walk my son to school. It's a nice little 15 minute walk there. So total I am doing an hour of cardio with just walking. That I suppose is much more healthy than smoking a cigarette for 5 minutes.
The morons just came to my door. Whoops, MORMONS. I am not in the mood to deal with their shit. I just told them I do not believe in "god" and I don't want my kids around that bullshit. They seemed angry and started talking again. I shut the door on them in mid sentance. I am such a bitch. Oh fucking well. I do not want to deal with the stress of some fucker that wont leave my house, when all I want is a smoke. One fucking puff off a cancer stick. GODDAMNIT ALL TO FUCKING HELL. I WANT A FUCKING CIGARETTE. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I know half of this didn't make sense. Oh well.
Day 2
I suppose I should have posted Day 1. But, I was too agitated to even think about it.
This Day 2 of my smoking cessation crusade. I really really really REALLY want one. It took every ounce of will power this morning to not go to the store and buy a pack. Ugh. This sucks...
Instead I went to my old Kickboxing class and punched the fuck out of a bag. That was fun.
Now I am on my way to walk my son to school. It's a nice little 15 minute walk there. So total I am doing an hour of cardio with just walking. That I suppose is much more healthy than smoking a cigarette for 5 minutes.
The morons just came to my door. Whoops, MORMONS. I am not in the mood to deal with their shit. I just told them I do not believe in "god" and I don't want my kids around that bullshit. They seemed angry and started talking again. I shut the door on them in mid sentance. I am such a bitch. Oh fucking well. I do not want to deal with the stress of some fucker that wont leave my house, when all I want is a smoke. One fucking puff off a cancer stick. GODDAMNIT ALL TO FUCKING HELL. I WANT A FUCKING CIGARETTE. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I know half of this didn't make sense. Oh well.
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Anyway, you're doing great, I support you a bajillion percent and I know you'll make it through.
i know how hard it is to quit cigarettes. i smoked my first cigarette when i was six and a half. started smoking full time when i was like eleven. just recently quit. sucked ass, big time. the best thing i can tell you to do is keep busy, keep busy, keep busy. don't let yourself sit still for more than half a second, or you're going to be thinking about those hundreds of packs of cigarettes at the gas station.
as you already know, the nights are the worst. i seem to remember reading you were married or engaged or something, so i'd assume you figured it out already. but, if not, jump your man like a wild animal. sex is the best way to beat any addiction (aside from opiates/heroin, but i'll give advice on that when asked).
don't do like me, and quit eight times in one year...cause everytime it gets worst...although i'm sure this isn't your first time quitting, but thought i'd offer some advice, friend to friend.
also, i posted a bunch more on your group. when your less easily agitated, let me know and i have some ideas for the group you might like.