So all things considered I had a pretty shitty day.
I woke up later than I wanted to. I did not have a recurrence of my excellent dream of the prior night. Although I really shouldn't complain about dreams. I have one every night that makes me wake up smiling. And that's more than anybody can ask for. I decided after much hemming and hawing... Read More
Now I want to go to IHOP. I haven't been there in forever, and I'm even willing to face the risk of major annoyances for some waffles!
I'm reading World War Z right now, because I'm a zombie geek
oh the joys of eating at a family place... that's why I either cook crappy food, or eat at bars... where I know there is nothing but grown ups... well sorta, with all the drunks
hahaha, I hate when people change my name!! when is a small mistake, like something I could see how they just couldn't pronounce it or something is not bad... but I've had people changing it completely, that, pisses me off...
Ok, new blog, though not really a new mood unfortunately. I seem to be happiest when I have something to distract me from what I see as my many problems. Which is I'm sure normal and whatever, and they don't usually bother me... i don't know. I'd like this to be an organized blog that's easy to follow but I kinda feel like rambling..... and... Read More
The nice thing about blogs and the internet is that the things you need to somehow verbalize are out there, for people to read at their leisure. I'm very self-conscious about talking too much to my coworkers (or even my closest friends) about stuff that I rant and rant about on my journals, because while I want that stuff out there, I also freak out that I'm boring them, or irritating them, or wasting time that they could be using thinking about other stuff. But this is your blog, and it's not attention-whoring, because it's your space, more or less. It's where people voluntarily come to see what's going on with you. Attention-whoring would be spamming the boards with needy Look At ME shit.
For myself, I usually do notice when you sort of vanish for a little while. I don't worry, because people's lives get crazy, and you don't owe me an explanation or anything, though I do hope you're well. And then I see you post a new blog or something, and I say to myself, "Hey, skeeve is back! Good times." Repeat as needed - I certainly don't see it as anything to be overly concerned about. You've got to do what's right for you, right?
I'm sure people notice when you're not around, even if they don't say anything. I notice. But I often stay away from SG for a day or two at a time, so I don't worry when other people do it. I just guess that every now and then we do things that don't involve SG
I wouldn't worry about being an attention whore, either. Everyone is an attention whore to a degree. I like it when people pay attention to me, and I guess everybody does. But if you think you're being too much of an attention whore, then I suport you 100% in your efforts to get it under control.
I'm just a fucked up little boy in a big fucking world.
I don't know what I want and if I find something I want I have no idea how long I'll continue to want it.
So just, fuck it.
Ok, I'll probably replace this with a more complete blog when I have the time, but right now I'm still getting over the good-bye blues and I have to clean up and shit.
Suffice it to say, I had an amazing time with deathlybeauty. She's a great girl, and anybody that gets to spend any time with her is a very very lucky person.... Read More
Well I was told I should probably update, and to be honest I was kinda thinking about it a lot recently too.
Problem is I don't really have all that much to blog about.
Life has settled into a pretty repetitive routine. Which I suppose isn't the worst thing ever because all things considered I'm pretty happy.
Well I don't like posting like that previous blog as much as you might think otherwise.
So here I am covering it up.
I was going to write a lot of very interesting and insightful things I discovered tonight about my family dynamics but it got too personal and I felt less and less comfortable sharing it here.
I'm so sick of so many things.
I'm sick of pissing people off.
I'm sick of being pissed off.
I'm sick of having a whole day to pieces for no good reason at all.
I'm sick of people jumping down my throat.
I'm sick of people not-so-behind-my-back trash talking me and thinking they're clever for it.
I'm sick of people's thinly veiled sarcasm and insults.... Read More
I'm reading World War Z right now, because I'm a zombie geek
hahaha, I hate when people change my name!! when is a small mistake, like something I could see how they just couldn't pronounce it or something is not bad... but I've had people changing it completely, that, pisses me off...