bad day,..Gggrr 
when will i have an absolute great day, do i hafta go out of town to do that?
hit the gym twice again today, i hate waiting for this fawkin tire around my waist to disappear.
it takes patience tho. just stick to it.
well it would have been me and my last boyriend, which was my first love.. 4 year anniversary last week. We have only been broken up for like 7 months too.
wel hes been calling me for like a week asking me to go eat, all playing it off too..because hes been asking to go to benihana which was OUR restraunt.
and its expensive so you dont just call your ex up after a while and say do you wanna go to ya know our old place...
so he misses me and i miss him so....
but we have both changed and i have to keep my heart protected.
im in a relationship right now too, but its kinda rocky,
i dunno what to do with myself.
i was gonna say fawk school, and workl and move out...but i feel like that will be another year of my life procrastinated and me sitting still.
so it sux i will still be living at home, and im going back to school on the 23rd as a full time student.
which also sux because i know im gonna run into my ex there..
he called me today and wanted me to go drink and lay out by the pool, luckily i was busy about to go workout and i didnt feel bad saying no....but then he called back like 3 hours later asking me to go eat...as im sitting in my bois house while hes in the shower,...i didnt answer he left that on the message and called like 2 more times..
my life can never NOT BE DRAMATIC can it?
i dunno,..i feel lost...i hate that i even have to put these sand journal entries in here. it makes me more angry...ha ha ha
oh well...im also watching unfaithful right now because thats the only thing on out of these 500 fawkin channels...
i dunno...shit
there once was a time
that i felt the world was mine
time passes and people grow
everything has slipped away before you could know
what happen to the days were there were no worries
the times you were full of energy
and had nothing to do
or think about
your first love has imprinted your heart
feels like you will never get over them
you just want them to come back
and then they do
but its not the best time for you
do you let it slip away and wait until its right
or do you grab a hold of it tight?
when will i have an absolute great day, do i hafta go out of town to do that?
hit the gym twice again today, i hate waiting for this fawkin tire around my waist to disappear.
it takes patience tho. just stick to it.
well it would have been me and my last boyriend, which was my first love.. 4 year anniversary last week. We have only been broken up for like 7 months too.
wel hes been calling me for like a week asking me to go eat, all playing it off too..because hes been asking to go to benihana which was OUR restraunt.
and its expensive so you dont just call your ex up after a while and say do you wanna go to ya know our old place...
so he misses me and i miss him so....
but we have both changed and i have to keep my heart protected.
im in a relationship right now too, but its kinda rocky,
i dunno what to do with myself.
i was gonna say fawk school, and workl and move out...but i feel like that will be another year of my life procrastinated and me sitting still.
so it sux i will still be living at home, and im going back to school on the 23rd as a full time student.
which also sux because i know im gonna run into my ex there..
he called me today and wanted me to go drink and lay out by the pool, luckily i was busy about to go workout and i didnt feel bad saying no....but then he called back like 3 hours later asking me to go eat...as im sitting in my bois house while hes in the shower,...i didnt answer he left that on the message and called like 2 more times..
my life can never NOT BE DRAMATIC can it?
i dunno,..i feel lost...i hate that i even have to put these sand journal entries in here. it makes me more angry...ha ha ha
oh well...im also watching unfaithful right now because thats the only thing on out of these 500 fawkin channels...
i dunno...shit
there once was a time
that i felt the world was mine
time passes and people grow
everything has slipped away before you could know
what happen to the days were there were no worries
the times you were full of energy
and had nothing to do
or think about
your first love has imprinted your heart
feels like you will never get over them
you just want them to come back
and then they do
but its not the best time for you
do you let it slip away and wait until its right
or do you grab a hold of it tight?
it sounds like you are in a predicament. do you love your current? do you still love your ex? it is really sad that you have to deal with your ex now. i don't even know how to give you advice. i have no idea what i would do...not that i should be giving this kind of advice anyway... ha!