What a little word... it has had various meanings applied to it. In Freud's system, the ego is the conscious aspect of the psyche that chooses between the base instincts of the id and the morality of the super ego. A person with an "ego problem" is considered to be centered on the self. He is thought of as boastful, self'centered person. It's usually male but can be female as well.
Some People view ego as the unconscious part of ourselves, involved with hate,malice and destruction. Ego has also been described as something that is always with us, controlling our daily lives, but which we can do little to change.
Other's define ego as the exclusive physical aspect of our reality as opposed to the spiritual or higher part that we define as soul.
I think that the Ego is nothing more then a Illusion, but a very influential one.
No one has ever seen the true Ego no one has looked at it in it's face and truly seen what it looks like. I think it's because the Ego is a idea.
It's mental invisible formless fucking idea. A idea you have on yourself, It's a illusion but it stops you from truly knowing yourself.
As I see it ego is a wrong-mindedness that attempts to present you as you would like to be rather than as you are.
Think how when you look in the mirror everything is backwards, your right hand is your left and ect. YOu understand that this is backward view that you are seeing and you make the appropriate adjustments. You do not confuse reality with the image in the mirror.
The ego, this idea of yourself, is very much like the mirror example, without the adjustments. Your Ego wants you to look for the inside on the outside. The outer illusion is the major preoccupation of the ego. The way of your higher self is to relfect your inner reality rather than the outer illusion.
"Two People have been living in you all of your life. One is Ego, garrulous, demanding, hysterical, calculating, the other is the hidden spritual being, whose still voice of wisdom you have only rarely heard or attended to "
Sogyal Pinpoche, in "The Tibetan book of LIving and Dying"
He goes on and states " The memory of your real nature, with all it's splendor and confidence, begins to return to you... You will find that you have uncovered in yourself your own wise guide. Because he or she knows you through and through since he or she is you"
( Please read this book it's really amazing)
The inner wise guide is you, not the idea that you have of yourself. Think of this inner guide as your true self and allow yourself to listen to this wise guide. Instead of listening to the gossip of the Ego you will hear clear and inspiring messages of wisdom. Eventually you will free yourslef from the demands of that ego.
"If you ar not feeling a deep rich sense of yourself and your purpose in now-here, it is probably because you believe you are your ego"
This is somethng I must work on....
Tomorrow's blog will be based on the seven Primary Ego Characteristics
1. Ego is your false self-
what's your thoughts on Ego?
I know - that's referencing only one, narrow, definition. What you've written is most interesting - I'm looking forward to more.
I hope that you are feeling better. You are very brave and strong to be dealing with all that is going on.
Best wishes...