I’ve been weaning Myself off of my psych meds because well, I have no medical insurance. I’ve been on some meds for years and I’m thinking they had a lot to do with the crumbling of my relationship. I was a different person. Not completely myself and they only seemed to make my mental health decline. It’s quite possible that I may have been on the wrong meds. For right now I’m getting off of them.
Since I’ve been running out and cutting down on my meds my libido has come back with a vengeance, unfortunately I’m single. I don’t know if I’ll ever find what I’m looking for again.
I want a nerdy girl who wants kids but I’m 43. Finding a girlfriend who is young enough to have kids, doesn’t have kids, and wants kids is turning out to be more difficult than I expected. Fuck I haven’t dated since I was as 26. I wish I could have those years back. Everything seemed so much easier then.
I ended up ordering my self a Fleshlight. I’ve never used one before but I have heard good things.
After the dating fails I had recently, I don’t have a whole lot of confidence in being able to find the right mate. I’m not willing to lower my lower my expectations for a potential mother to my children but, fuck, am I fucking horny right now.
Maybe I’ll just be alone for the rest of my life.