Been in weird place of late. I'm all anxty about my life and what it's become. I've been annoyed at my station in life. This s not where I saw myself at 21. I had my whole future ahead of me. I really thought that I would be making art for a living. Instead I'm a paper pusher at a shity inercity hospital. The same hospital that at lest one member of my family has worked at since 1910. It's like the family curse.
My lovely future wife is excelling in her studies in the art field far surppassing me in many aspects of the craft, and I have so much fucking envy for her. She in a good school going for her BFA while I only have AAS. I could have gone further if I had had more money and more support from my family.
But here I'm home alone on a Friday night whining abuot could've and should've. I have no idea what she sees in me.
My lovely future wife is excelling in her studies in the art field far surppassing me in many aspects of the craft, and I have so much fucking envy for her. She in a good school going for her BFA while I only have AAS. I could have gone further if I had had more money and more support from my family.
But here I'm home alone on a Friday night whining abuot could've and should've. I have no idea what she sees in me.